Human Kitten

I can’t believe I’ve written so many songs about you I can’t believe that I’ve focused so much energy on you Hell, I don’t even like you I only love you God dammit, fuck you God dammit, fuck you I am not sad anymore I’m only angry, resentful, an...

We think we’re so civilized But we’re the same as the people living in 1655 We're made up of the same biology We're not different just because we own fucking iPhone 5c’s And I hope you would understand That the future’s in your hands And using tec...

Sometimes we’ve gotta say what we’re really thinking Sometimes we’ve gotta say what we really feel We need to tell our loved ones how much they really mean to us Before they’ve left or they’re dead under the ground Because a lifetime is fleeting Esp...

Longing for the times you were escaping from Unable to tell what lies beneath Searching for your alibis, holding onto foolish lies There's nothing dirtier than loneliness And I'm pretty fucking lonely man Tell me how youre feeling Or else i'll nev...

It felt so, so lonely moving back to Maryland from Chicago I miss the tall buildings, the pretty faces I’ll never see again, again And I know, wherever I go, I’ll always be alone Just a sad punk kid with a bunch of sad sounding songs It felt so, so l...

I'm trying to fall in love with you And it's stupid for me to think you'd wanna do the same too So I will fantasize About every plausible reality And doubt will consume me I really wanna see you the moment that I do wake up But I know that's the r...

I get so caught up in all the silence And I’m so disoriented by the noise I forget about the people who love me You’ve gotta nurture things before they die And I’m not the best example of healthy Need a box of wine to bring down my heart rate To a...

People talk about loss like it's only death And not when people choose to leave you willingly People talk about loss like it's only death And not when you move real far away And never speak to your old friends again I guess I'm losing touch, cause I...

sitting here like a statue only thinking rocky thoughts overtaken by vegetation, regretting all the things i've bought and would you believe the things ive seen sitting alone here in my bedroom the things i thought i believed, they have broken seams and...

There seems to be answers to your questions But no one will look you straight in the eye And there seems to be solutions to your problems But everyone expects you to solve them yourself And I know that we’re changing every day And I know that we’ll...

I think to be a good person You’ve got to admit that you’re often wrong I think to be a good person You’ve got to admit that you’re often wrong And I am wrong all the time I am wrong all the time I am wrong all the time I am wrong all the time...

And I keep fucking up And I can’t figure out why I can’t do anything right Cause I keep channeling my manic episodes Into unhealthy obsessions like stealing, eating Endless hours of self loathing I am not fit to exist in a society like this anymor...

All I eat is chinese food and pizza delivery All I eat is chinese food and pizza delivery And I’m way too fucking poor to keep on living this way All I eat is chinese food and pizza delivery And I’m so fucking sad 

I am not a man, I'm a venue for anger and sadness Stuck inside a land of concrete roads and 7/11s Buying things won’t make us happy Consumer culture will make us feel crappy About ourselves and our skewed senses of beauty And our dissatisfaction ste...

My songs are getting less And less political with every word And I’m getting more self involved With every song I record I know that I am sick And I know that I can’t help it I know that I’m selfish And I wish that I could help it You’ve seen...

I wish I had a reason for feeling how I feel I wish there was a purpose or a meaning or something I wish that when I did feel great, it lasted more than just a day And I didn’t go straight back to feeling miserable And the part of brain that functions...

you interpret the things around you through the pain that other people gave you you gotta learn that early or it’s gonna be hard sometimes I wish I could just shut off so I didn’t have to make your life suck the road to depression is paved with good inte...

People will believe things about you that aren't true And at the end of the day, this will never change Yelling over and over so you’ll hear me say I’ll write a thousand songs and I'll make my words concise This personality I’ve nurtured is much too w...

Feels like I’ve been losing touch with my altruistic side I can’t help myself, so I might as well help anybody else Close my eyes and slow my breath, I’m the only one left Too many thoughts are racing by, so I smile and say “hi” “My name’s Elijah and...

If you've done things you regret now In the couple of decades you've been alive Please tell me why and if it has to do With the fact that you wanna be good, I believe you I believe you, I believe you, I believe in you Just stop fucking doing those th...

I’m not trying to shock you, I’m not trying to scare you I’m not trying to gain your pity, respect, or envy I’m yelling at you for my own selfish reasons To ease the pain of being conscious I’m just a worm feeding off the earth I only know when it ra...

I hate being unsuccessful Academically, socially, and emotionally I am not fit for this world My body would have more use Lit up lighting up an alley in the city Than it would being alive So I’m asking why, so I'm asking why, so I'm asking why...

I hate having empathy for every human soul When someone breaks their leg, I feel like I've broken my leg too And I’m sad for hours and then I’m sad again I feel what you feel I really feel what you feel I hate never fully being accepted into a crowd...

I’m in love with a feminist girl I’m in love with her self respect She’s stronger than me, she’s stronger than me I wish I could be, I wish I could be I wish I could be a feminist girl 

Who’s holding the radical punks up to the same standards? The feminists, the anarchists, the so-called rock stars? Just cause you think your ideals are fighting oppression Doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t stop blogging Cause hey, we’re all simultaneou...

I feel like life is a ticking time bomb and every day is another tick Towards our eventual deaths And I need to take down my calendar because I’m ticking away I’m scared and I’m anxious of what it means to do nothing Sometimes I dream about death but...

What is unstable and what is real? This is a question that I ask myself on a daily basis Are my emotions genuine or are they just the result Of my neural passages sending my chemicals back and forth Who am I? Is it that guy? The one that's standing...

Driving into oncoming traffic is a daydream of mine I would do anything to wear my illness on the outside Selfishly thinking that I suffer more, so my art must be better, More worthy to see, oh the fucking audacity of me And I’ve come to regret everyo...

I am angry and I am sad And I am searching for a place to rest my head But I’m too selfish and self-involved All I can think of is how shitty I’ve become Cause I never ask you how you’re doing I never ask if you’re day was fine I never wonder why...

You said it’s easier on the outside looking in But that’s bullshit, cause dude you're scaring me, please put the drink down immediately Cause what you're doing dude, well it’s killing you And with what you're going through, well I can only kind of forgiv...

flashlights shining down the hallway at noontime twelve angry men on their cellphones under a streetlight payment plans, everyone's dead, what the fuck im sick and tired of being treated like the final product, like the final product and i feel like a...

I wish you would hang out with me, I want to drive my car into a tree It doesn't get better, wish someone told me that when I was seventeen They'll switch up the meds, well maybe it's all in your head Although everything changes, we still lay in bed An...

The now is never enough, the past was always the best The now is never enough, the past was always the best I’ll never feel satisfied, I’ll never feel satisfied I’ll never feel satisfied, I’ll never feel satisfied I’ve got this seasick pit in my stoma...

When the curtain closed before the play ended I felt like I had lost my narrative vision All the characters, they just disappear Into nothingness All their hopes, inside jokes Their laughs, and their smiles They just turn into dust, they just turn...

We’re starting over and over and over and over and over and over again We wish stability could be offered to me and you and me and you But we are not the same kids that we were when we were in high school We've got responsibilities to our families and ou...

Where are all the day friends, are they asleep Are they resting? Or are they just ignoring me Where are all the day friends who don’t Wanna get drunk and high at 1am Where am I? Where are my friends? Oh god, I wish I had friends And I’m crazy and I...

I’m always so lonely, frustrated, and angry And I never know if it’s my fault Or if it’s just my brain working fucking wrong Cause I have got problems that I cannot withhold Cause I have got diseases that I cannot control And my feelings are at the...

I always say nothing when I, I should have said something I always say nothing when I, I should have said something Cause I couldn’t think of the right thing to say No, I can never think of the right thing to say I spend most of my days paralyzed by...

It’s so cliché Oh, the girl that got away She’s made my heart hurt, She makes me feel like I'm going crazy But I’ll always be waiting for her I hate caring about anyone that is not myself Cause they unintentionally take total power over me The p...

I wake up with this muggy feeling in my head like I wish that yesterday, oh yesterday, I had been found dead From an overdose on vitamins and prescribed medications I wanted to be healthier, well I guess I overcompensated And tomorrow I hope I can be...

My mind is haunting me The public life is turning me into a fraud Podcasts drown out the pain I only wish I could be listening to them with you When you watch a sitcom Is it analogous to your life or do you get caught up in the fantasy Where fri...

Change the things you hate or change the way you feel Complaining is fucking worthless, but I totally understand the appeal Every small trace of sexism in me is the direct result of insecurity I’m trying to be better, trying to understand the plight of ot...

I get calls from debt collectors every day Finally asking me to settle up and pay What they don't understand is that I can barely make it through the day Without contemplating the destruction of everything I get calls from debt collectors every day...

I am very lonely I haven’t had sex for too many months Lacking intimacy Full of jealously I am worthless and I want you To come inside me And fill me up with Something containing meaning Instead of the vacant ghosts Haunting my insides To...

You've got to love yourself the way you love your favorite song You've got to love yourself the way you love sleeping in til 2pm You've got to love yourself the way you love pita chips with hummus You've got to love yourself the way you'd love anyone els...

I don’t want to be right, I want to be happy I don’t want to be sad, I wanna be sappy I wanna cry to romantic comedies I want to watch stupid action movies And if there is a god upstairs, well I bet he likes us Cause we’re good, we’re good, it’s coo...

four liters of blood taken from my veins is lousy there is nothing i can do to escape this broken sickly body except to loosen the reigns that i have on my brain redirect the reality towards something that sustains four ounces of matter taken from my...

you won't tell me anything but the words in your mouth they feel like clouds when you throw them into my face sweaty and awkward like the first night I felt you up in your bedroom we're alone now I can feel you up against me a body so weak...

I wonder what it would be like if I didn't change when I did Would I still hurt everyone that I love? Would I still be so toxically desperate? Would I still send mass snapchats To all of my goddamn contacts As if there was inherent significance In...

I’ve been shoplifting too much lately I've been gambling my own sense of security Because we live in the kind a society Where that’s the kind of shit ya gotta do to feel free I’ve been arguing with my Mom about the morality Of stealing from big box...

Feels like I'm hearing voices And they're screaming at me, “You're doing it wrong” So I just fill my stomach With three four-dollar pizzas I bought at the supermarket Each day just blends into the next Constant betrayal of my success Don't care whe...

It’s great if you’re fat and it’s great if you’re skinny And it’s great if you're black, white, blue, green or grey And it’s great if you’re a homosexual alcoholic slut And it’s great if you’re straight, sober, and celibate As long as you believe there...

I still wanna have sex with all of my ex-girlfriends I still wanna drown myself in text messages A flashing light is all I need No food or water, just internet for me And my idea of my own worthlessness Became my own real world worthlessness And I...

Do you ever feel like you’re alone And you can’t pick yourself up off the ground, unless your skeleton is slipping out Forward thinking could mean anything Your feelings mean next to nothing inside of me Tonight Our pain becomes a set of laws that we...

I just got another job, but I'm still not busy enough To distract from the existential torture of being alone Sometimes the only solution is to get up off the couch And remind yourself there's definitely a fucking way to get out Of this thought proces...

I told my doctor today, that things are getting worse Taking all these medications isn’t helping my outbursts I told my doctor today that I am not a man I am not a woman, hell, I don’t know what I am I told my doctor today that I need to leave, Need...

Half of the time I’m normal, half of the time I’m too crazy to function Half of the time I’m straight edge, the other half I’m a raging alcoholic I’m either the life of the party or not speaking at all I’m in love or disinterested, infatuated or indiffe...

we’re all getting harder when we think we’re getting softer endless problems, stupid drama, it wasn’t high school, it’s human nature quarantine my everything, water the plants you’d rather spring up to see me ending the one thing i have made for me, th...

Depreciate the value, then bring it to my barbecue You have no clue what you do to me dude You make my knees weak, you make my heart ache Then you shove it in my face and blood is all I taste And I will feel better after you leave I need you out of...

My brain is a cynic, but my heart is an optimist And my spine can’t choose which side it’s on And my circulatory system is all fucked up From all the one man ice cream pizza parties I host And I wish there was anything to fix this, To make me feel li...

I’m afraid to write about bands that I like For a fear of seeming that I am appealing to a fanbase that I Would like to belong to, would like to report to And at the end of day, I wouldn’t feel ashamed of knowing I was playing a dirty game No, that’s n...

I’m to be avoiding you Cause you are everything and nothing You are everything and nothing And I’m supposed to suck it up this time Cause you’ve arrived You’ve arrived And I’ll admit that I’m angry too But it’s not at you It’s at the fucked up...

Broke down in a rest stop bathroom Fell asleep at the wheel I felt nothing when I left there Felt everything an hour and a half away I just wish I could stay in one place For over six months But I'm too scared Of no one really knowing me for who...

make lots of phone calls or people will forget if you don't lean into the puzzle, you'll never know if you fit you're the cancer cure and the misplaced soulmate it's a matter of fact, not a matter of fate the people you've hurt, well they're only half...

What have punks really done for the world? Oh, the denim jacket business is booming But there’s still a war going on from shore to shore And there’s punks that are being drafted Into the armies of the working fucking masses And you say you hate conf...

Caught in between lines This is not my time You try to fail Just a ghost of a past self that you don't know very well Emptied all my pockets in front of your highness To prove to everyone that I'm not as rich as they thought I was We're just emula...

I'm a nice filler for a party that needs some bodies I'm a nice filler for a twitter account that needs some followers I know my place, this is just a stepping stone, my face I know what I am to you: nothing at all, nothing at all 24 years old, I'm st...

How do you make it to your therapy sessions If you can’t even make it out of bed How do you keep up with your classes and studies If you can't even escape your head Cause everyone is a victim Of a world devoid of empathy I didn't ask to be born wi...

I thank you for letting me know What a shithead I really am It had to come out of your mouth For me to internalize it Cause I always respected you And I will always love you But you will never love me Cause I do not deserve it And I cause des...

There’s no such thing as talent So scream what you feel and offer what you think Cause nothing you can make will be wrong Ignore the advertisements You don’t need to be skinny. the image ain’t worthy Just be a fucking good person But don’t be so...

Smoke weed every day And brag about how you're Addicted to a drug And promise the world You’ll make something creative But you never do And one day you’ll find yourself wasting away On a futon, one day Just drink away the pain With a box of...

Well, I don’t ask questions anymore Cause I lost my mind somewhere along the line And I do not know if I’m crazy, or if I’m just really dumb I just can’t find clarity with my perma-fucked up mentality No, I’m not searching for someone to understand me...

I was supposed to be a missed carriage but the princess was on time I was supposed to be aborted, but the spaceship was in line But I survived, my brain survived And my heart it survived, I can’t believe I survived There was a civil war in debate clas...

Nihilism is wisdom if you're an person on the internet Trying to get the last word in a conversation About things that people really care about But you're actually the smart one cause you realize nothing matters "Hey man fuck you, who are you to tell m...

Can't even write songs I am way too sad to even try to vocalize my thoughts Wanna destroy my feelings Every single damn time that I get so caught up in the healing Cause it's never lasting Cause I'm stuck never lasting You could tell me a million w...

When I was 15, I was nothing, I was stupid and angry When I was 18, I was blinded, I was drunken and lazy But now I’m 19, and then I’ll be 20 and I will be king of everything And I’ve been sad for most of my life, I’ll probably be sad tomorrow I don’t...

The people that you rely on Might one day have to leave you And I know it’s a lot of responsibility To have an illness like this Something that will tell you You can’t out of bed No no no, you’re not allowed to smile You stupid fucking worthless...

Let’s go get some heroin tonight Let’s go get some heroin alright? Cause I’m feeling kinda shitty And I want to feel alright So let’s go get some heroin tonight Addiction is a myth, I’m telling you Why would people do it if that were true? So st...

This is not who I am This is not who I wanted to be So dependent on society To take care of me Treatment for mental illness Is a poor excuse for inclusiveness And I’m not sure you respect me If you can’t understand that it’s not all in my head...

I hate having to say I’m sorry So I try saying nothing at all I could’ve kissed you, I should have kissed you Oh god, I wish I wouldn’t have kissed you You said I was too charming That I had to stay away And if your heart were a bowling ball My p...

It seems like it was easier When you started When you started new But that's bullshit Oh, it's all, it's all, it's all, it's all An illusion So just talk my ear right off And I swear I could give a fuck So just talk my ear right off And I swe...

My doctor says I’ve got anxiety and dammit that fucker's right I’ve been eating more benzodiazepine than a 1950’s housewife I need to throw up and cry into the sky And rain it down on all the people, burn off their skin until they die And I will mour...

I fall in love with every pretty girl I know Every girl that gives me a second glance Makes me feel like I am not worthless I fall in love with every girl on the internet That responds to my messages with "Oh god, Elijah you are so talented" Why...

I might as well be queer Because I have kissed as many boys as I have girls I might as well be queer Because I’ve pushed myself away from a society That pushes down the weak The freaks, the weirdos and the geeks The ones that they deem to be differ...

Friend requesting all the hipster girls on Facebook Because I’ve given up on real life And I don’t know how to meet human beings anymore I’ll be satisfied with a selfie with 27 likes And sadness will come and sadness will pass But sadness will alway...

Don’t give up even if things get shitty Don’t give up even if things get shittier Cause your outlook changes everything about Your self-perceived identity that you haven’t even begun figuring out Don’t give up even if your heart breaks Don’t give u...

Standing up for what you believe in Doesn’t mean being a dick about everything Vilifying people for sport and not purpose Doesn’t make you an activist, just a goddamn asshole And if you think that you’re a feminist Could you please stop trying to po...

Please stop reading all of those young adult novels Like Looking for Alaska or the Perks of Being a Wallflower There’s more to life than romance and butterflies But you'll never learn if you keep on taking advice from 15 year old guys Don’t make it se...

lying is violence and you're on the front lines, believing whats convenient every single fucking time, i shouldnt have to suffer cause youre inclined to decline any reality thats not clearly defined if you dont communicate your needs, youre just a b...