As I Lay Dying

94 hours of regret for me to realize what I held unfading beauty, not just a face I held its innocence within my heart Go! Now I won't let go I won't let go I won't let go now i I won't let go now i I won't let go The torment of your eyes has awakened my soul....

Emptiness running through me Taking all that i am Leaving me this blinding mask Grasping for the wind Everything I've done Everything I've gained It all means nothing A mere breath has passed away Sadness I embrace Left with empty promises I look at myself and...

Reality no longer battles perception. This letter's written to no one. Sincere, I sought your truth and divine purpose through myths of revelation. Guidance all wrapped up in a paper box, supported only so long as my mind was the enemy. I could no...

Only You know my pain inside You've been there when no one else could be When tears fall from my eyes I know that You are always there No matter what's in my heart You are the One who cares When I doubt, You stand by me So I'm not ashamed to say the way I feel...

A Thousands Steps we climbed a thousand steps without a single imprint this drowning regret will die, forgotten like my past moving bodies lie in rest carried by each other 

how many years have we waited for a ship that never set sail? and how many days have we wasted chasing a love that was not our own? i sat ashore and watched as one hopeless wave crashed upon another while my thoughts ran to the highest hills my heart never rea...

I've tried to find reconciliation behind the walls of those whose hatred burns. For I find it easier to reach someone who still feels, than to make amends with passionless apathy. Where all lines are the same a portrait cannot be made. I need to burn inside....

None of this matters, none of these words. Common and silent we will die in this world. We've only spoken to those who agree, and without them we've fallen on deaf ears. Stand on conviction and you will walk alone. For once I have stood (I have stood), no on...

I want to bring You all that is in my heart I want to give You my everything But I've failed You so many times How can I stand here before You When I begin to steal what only belongs to You I am able to bring You nothing that isn't already Yours I am so ashame...

Reach inside of me Far beneath the encasing of ashes Bleeding red Still showing signs of life Remove the darkness Take me away A Stream of Hope destroy this corrupted cell Purification (Leaving me desolate in the face of perfection) Unable to hide I a...

What we see now is only a fraction... Bound to learn the hard way (hard way), this is the human condition. There is nothing that can be said to stop us from making mistakes. When I look to myself as a source of ending pain, no matter how many times before I'v...

have you ever been blinded by the pain? blinded (blinded) by the pain unwilling to see, senseless so blinded by selfishness only focusing on myself and ignoring anyone else becoming driven by despair feeling trapped into a corner losing more and more...

This blood turned into tears A broken heart runs my body Dripping forth until I give my life I have become a sacrifice It hurts me just to think of you I void the pain that is unbarring (To know that I take these sufferings from you) 

Will I ever escape? Can we ever change? Will I ever escape? Can we ever change? Will I ever escape? Can we ever change? 

i see them coming with shrouds to bury us all before we were born they shaped our lives leading us into an unmarked grave in moments life could end so i will speak while i can this is my chance my time to stand we may fail alone but that is better than dying...

The truth of my heart Is like a repressed tale A censored and silenced story Repression or restraint It is a delicate balance Between bleeding out What will make me drown And closing in What I cannot afford to spill Either way I must cauterize Cau...

can you understand my meaning hidden in the roses around my eyes i want you to know how much it means to have you in my life your love brings me close again in this instance this single moment when our worlds collide the wire of eternity twists around us i can...

you sat and watched as i nearly destroyed myself never had i felt so betrayed that you would sacrifice my life for no more than comfort and now your love means nothing to me your are coward, the antithesis of a friend take action before there is no one left to...

Condemned... Condemned... Condemned... Condemned... Condemned... without given a chance to speak. Without acknowledgment they're made less than human. Condemned... Condemned to anonymity. Trapped by... Trapped by obscurity. Condemned... Condemned to anonymity...

Confined That night I never came home, Wandering souls captured my thoughts. Emptiness filled my mind. Urgency spoke her lies in the confines of these grey walls. I watched them move together. Taking me places I cannot remember. We have been poured o...

Control Is Dead Control is dead in this blind world for we do what we hate split from inside betrayed by emotion we must look past what is in front of us shadows are security they have become the solace of my looking glass heart in search for certainty i no l...

Fighting so hard to be heard Yet having nothing to say You talk about changing masses But forget those close to you Most of us have given up On these words that all sound the same But I am still willing to believe If you have done all that you can Yo...

You... The contingencies...of another day...unravel my senses And nowyour distance is darkness, and now your distance is darkness. my hope has been beset by your absence i decay from inside...from inside underneath it all there is still life despite it all the...

Up here in space I'm looking down on you. My lasers trace Everything you do. You think you've private lives Think nothing of the kind. There is no true escape I'm watching all the time. I'm made of metal My circuits gleam. I am perpetual I keep the country cl...

did you ever see me or could you even see at all i looked at your cold white face, so still, so empty yet i knew you were at rest much more comforted than i what else could i find to replace who you were it was the carefree unrestricted love that you never mea...

i've watched them build upon these empty hearts false hopes of lossless paradise gathering together the dead hearts beat as one stillborn comfort feeding lies through answers of self denial divided between a dissolute self and the sorrow of sincere devotion wh...

the sound of silent voices surveying my thoughts regularity defining perfection neither sorrow nor contentment whispering emptiness, frail words collapse my weight only stirs the ground how long can i hold your hand as you walk over graves you search for...

Exhausted beyond repair Stripped of all I had Forced to die inside Forced to die Now I breathe a renewed Life I is now I see without my eyes Remind me of my need for You If this is what it takes To bring me to my knees Then feed me pain until I realize I am bu...

Forever, your eyes will hold the memory. I saw your heart as it overtook me. We tried so hard to understand and reason But in that one moment, I gave my heart away. I gave my heart away. In that moment, I gave my heart away. In that moment, I gave my heart aw...

i've looked straight into your eyes and turned my head for the last time because i was scared to leave these walls in ruin like the fate of those who trust in themselves we are alone and afraid i know your are the one we left behind yet somehow we are t...

You've lost touch You've lost touch with the outcasts Have you forgotten your own past? Have you forgotten that your house is made of glass (is made of glass) So while you're pointing your fingers You are unable to use your hands to help with solving, s...

i never wanted and i never cared before now take it back this is a new day how i long to regress to the days before i took upon myself the obsessions of this world a day of innocence equating beauty for tomorrow may fall and today is already gone now take it...

How could I go back... Back to the life where I lived amongst the dead. Those who have forgotten how to feel And become slaves to memory and wishful thinking. But Your love has set me free As You've awakened every star that has been sleeping In the const...

Enticement, enthralling - fervent embrace Impassioned arousal A taste of blood wine, soft kisses fade away Fateful temptation, amorous aura Swirl and seethe in burning bliss To sink into deep rapture Ardent love profound Enticement, enthralling - f...

Losing Sight How could we lose sight Of what matters most Trying to love What cannot love us back All we have is not worth living for If we do not know when to let go What is life That we cling to it so tight Afraid that it will take from us These f...

i have traveled so far to find so little meaning in tragedy or tragedy in the search for the meaning dark clouds have lead me here confined freedom guides us to security what if everything i have been taught is a lie and all of my teachers have been wrong this...

All along it was me who changed. Morning now waits for me. What I have to gain does not matter If what I give is all to You. I have seen the stars fall And the sun rise again, But You are yet to change. You are all that is worth living for. 

We're born helpless But guided by humanity What was compassion? Soon controls the way we think Familiarity has left me desitized And inanity keeps deception disguised We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around History...

Like a swarm of flies colliding with a moving windshield So are our lives on this never-ending road I have left behind my mark only to be later washed away And was consumed with the allure despite the inevitable decay When did the road that I'm on become...

The lies, the weight, deceit, decay The lies, the weight It’s clear i lost my way Deceit, decay Decomposing I thought i was an architect but i was just moving dirt Stacking mud over malice covered-up forming nothing but a pile of hurt I hadn’t been bu...

I fought who i am inside Until i wanted, i wanted to die Instead of finding balance i found hatred Consumed by failures and ignoring my own strengths Pushed out sea without learning to swim Or stranded in the desert with no lungs to breathe With no lung...

Nothing Left This world was never worthy But how can I call it unfaithful Every promise was fulfilled As decay crawled from it's throat Like the dead rising from an open grave /x2 Lips of splendor and tongue of deceit All dying now as our fragile wris...

The worst form of illness is one that goes undiagnosed Subtle decay secretly spread, a cancer of the soul A cancer... a cancer of the soul We are all dying Some of us just faster than our friends But pointing to a greater fault won't cure what we have...

All these moments of pain Must add up to something Our bodies have been trained to keep it all in But our hearts still hold on Some say to release it, forget about your past Instead we count the cost, it's part of us That doesn't mean that we cannot mov...

We are all comatose. We are overfed and under...undernourished, yearning for something more. Never starving yet never quite satisfied. Carnal but without useful flesh or mind. Yeah... I am a walking contradiction that’s found consistency consuming everythi...

What is certain I have ignored I have spent most of my life trying to complicate everything that I believe So that while paralyzed in thought I will always have an alibi Just another excuse, just another excuse to hesitate, to hesitate Delaying true pr...

I refuse to let go of the memories 'Cause they've changed everything inside of me If I could go back now to save myself at loss Substanceless character brought back would be the cost (the cost) Agony today Is tomorrow's strength So don't run away 'Caus...

I cannot make it without You All my efforts have failed So that I will cry out in the need of You Restore the strength of my Dependence Send me through the fire Make me pure again Everything I am I give it all to You In Your arms I wait I lay down my...

i laid the night before me unraveled that tangles of my heart all i felt was stale hollow air these streams of uncertainty they are all collapsing upon my mind torrents fill my veins until i burst with mistaken guilt and shame my battered bones try to keep fig...

You brought existence To what I never thought could be A world where eternity finds description I followed a dream only to be left in reality You reminded me of the unexplainable And then reshaped me by your beauty Knowing you has reinvented love in my h...

Repeating Yesteday This is what I am. This is what I have become. What is love without sacrifice? My tears hold no weight. If my commitment is only failure Each day I am born again to be a child in the eyes of love. Repeating yesterday. Drain me of...

Your resilience inspires me Facing tragedies I will never face Your presence is humbling To think of all that you have overcome It took such little pain For our lives to coalesce Finding what I could've found in no one else You bring me through the dar...

Your resilience inspires me Facing tragedies I will never face Your presence is humbling To think of all that you have overcome It took such little pain For our lives to coalesce Finding what I could've found in no one else You bring me through the dar...

the wise before me chose to refine themselves melt away their shortcomings by enduring trials a process we will all undertake even if we try to prevent change face it before you are pulled in face it while it’s still within like iron shaped by fire we...

Song 10 [Whispering] One night opens wounds and words utter pain You've hid hearts and songs as long as you recall One night opens wounds and words utter pain The truth cannot breathe a one in your soul You've hid hearts and songs as long as you recal...

Take me home Imitations surround me You are all I want to see So why do I turn To embrace what will never last All my life I've tried All my life I've failed And one day I will see Surrounded on every side 

I took what you gave me, destroyed it all I had to lose everything to know that I was wrong And now I see what was true all along A void in me now that everything is gone Now that everthing is gone The emptiness can be a source of clarity Taking away...

The storm is coming and I have a choice To accept nature or lose my voice Shall I scream and plead for nothing Or build a roof over my head? I mourn the days that I wasted Trying to change what has been set Fighting against myself Before I tear, tear o...

From here to eternity we begin understanding From here to eternity I see who you are and who else can compare I meant what I said, I promised to stand by your side Until the end, that's where we begin Until the end, that's where we begin From here to eternity...

I see now... I see through the veil of expectation. I see now... I see that conformity is betrayal. Betrayal of those who are forgotten, yet vision alone furthers our blame. Unless followed by transformation, it is pointless to be given sight. Without the hop...

For so long I have felt alone Content to live with unrest Longing faded into countless... nights That buried my weary heart But You brought an end To this dead hour And meaning to a... calloused life Held in Your arms But too far from my heart These...

For so long I was deceived Enslaved by these chains Blinded to Your forgiveness If only I knew Your love Giving Your life to save me from this pain Broken and bleeding I turned You away Now I have seen the scars inflicted by my hands The Innocence spilled to s...

The only constant is change. The only constant is change. Go... The human heart is born without legs, sliding back and forth, and never once does it truly rest, unless accompanied by death... Sliding back and forth. Even the strongest remnants of history, th...

How can I bear this any longer? Arms stretched out only to hold separation Take me away I'm dying inside Emptied before you I will fight until the day When I will see Sight given to these blind eyes When will I be taken from this life? Take what is yo...

Just like the spread of disease... Ya... Ya... Debt and guilt or guilt and decree, the masters that we please. Yet if we seek help for infirmities, we are made twice the sons of hell as before. Reach out your hand. Reach out your hand, only to be plagued by d...

we have all heard what we wanted to hear "truth" that sounds right to our ears but what wisdom is there within us to live based on the feeling of our hearts? how many times has instinct let us down never to be thought through never to be questioned say what y...

The Truth Of My Perception White shutters enclose The boundaries of my heart I hold my breath Till the steady beating is shut out In silence I wait for what is real For I know the truth of my perceptions Nothing in life matters more than You When firs...

There's a sentence they gave me Then one that remains unchanging Like skin that's burnt by frost It'll peel if I pull away It hurts to hold or let go As I'm trying to sustain Like feeling hunger pangs and eating bone to stay alive It tears me apart in...

Shatter my emotions Take them all away Left alone to face You Now You know my heart Left only to speak what is true See through this plague of flesh With truth I say that I love You Yet my heart betrays me Be not far from me For these voices They must soon cea...

The wreckage seemed to great for me I saw my dreams collapsing (collapsing) But through debris of tragedy Not one of us died fighting The wreckage We somehow found a way through storming weather Enduring skies turned gray when we all said never The w...

now this is who we are i am no one's hero for we are not the giant men that some may think You are faithful when we are not so i'd like to tell this story the way it is meant to be without the burden that's in our hearts none of us would have ever found You fo...

only through struggle have i found rest with a piece of me taken away i begin to understand hollow out this machine like chest with its gears that turn to make me feel and assembled thoughts that fade away only through struggle have i found rest only through...

Pulled both ways but still suspended The worst of each, reduced and blended Still suspended (suspended) I thought I was stuck between two worlds Because I was not willing to let go Recklessly pulled both ways But somehow still suspended The worst of...

Through this pain I refine Tearing me from within Screaming to be released but held fast by Your love Hold me here Break me until my face breathes upon this ground Outstretched with my head to the floor Spent of all my strength Relying on Yours 

Undefined what is this world, what is this weve created in the burdens of this life i cannot rest this world means nothing everything we hold will pass away with a void of completion comfort will ever fade i long for this wind to cease we once held und...

The life that I sought was already like a jail Long before I was ever bound Wrapped up in chains No one had built the bonds use to hold me captive I had locked away myself in a captain-less ship Destined to destroy ashore Destruction was my savior Cr...

I see no reason to try and be what I am not If simple honesty moves me, then why should I care? Others may think I lost my poetic way (I've lost my way) But I'd rather make my point without confusion I have failed those who I love the most And in the pro...

Many choose to find their hope in the thoughts of afterlife, when there is none to be found right here before we die. So I understand the feeling of helplessness, when we are just taught to wait here...wait here for death. Wait here for death. Wait for this s...

We live in slavery to a past we cannot escape, and I say it's worth it to just start again... again. We've focused so long on ideals of freedom that it is this very belief that oppresses us. We all want to be free, yet we find ways to forfeit liberty to our o...

Propaganda death ensemble Burial to be Corpses rotting through the night In blood laced misery Scorched earth the policy The reason for the siege The pendulum it shaves the blade The strafing air blood raid Infiltration push reserves Encircle the fro...

There are days when sorrow seems never-ending Like the countless roads upon which I've driven The price of attachment in pursuit of dreams That I so often can't seem to remember Yet there are days when beauty cannot be contained It even crawls out from un...

You meant the world to me All I have now is memories Your love brought joy to my heart You meant the world to me Tears of sorrow stream from my broken soul But I will see you again When this world fades away I will see you again 

Each little piece begins to stack up Now suffering under the weight of my choices And I hardly recognize myself Somewhere along the line There stopped being lines at all (whispering silence) Whispering silence The subtle contradiction Compromise creep...

I fought who I am inside Until I wanted, I wanted to die Instead of finding balance I found hatred Consumed by failures and ignoring my own strengths Pushed out to sea without learning to swim Or stranded in the desert with no lungs to breathe With no l...

f music is a mirror revealing the depths of my heart. Then i will write the darkest song for without forgiveness my soul is lost. All that is hope within destruction comes from you. For i have fallen, and there is nothing good within me. Yet i've been given li...

If we chase acclaim in search for...search for stature, then our status becomes a vacuum draining. Opulence is a myth for there is no final rest. Change in circumstance only delays. The inescapable fact that we are downcast. In looking to the end we've lost s...

I can only imagine that wrath is being held out so there will be time for us to be redeemed but surely wrath is not being held out so that we may redeem ourselves for i've seen the madness of those who died trying but is regret only a word that the living poss...