Supuration

I try to search through my mind, I try to free my soul. My soul? My mind? What am I now? An entity? Endless corridors made of dusty mirrors surround me, reflecting the being I once was, stained with blood and bathed in tears. He holds out his hand into my dire...

Still trapped in the sphere which follows another one. Suddenly the sphere before me stops and disappears, all becomes black around me. I know my own sphere has disappeared too. Travelling through a dark place, I can only see a small light before me! I'm afrai...

(The next night.) You're my only firiend but you're not hearing me. To worry or reassure, you speak to me sometimes. Your rocking motion is a complaint, A quiet complaint like an interior pain. The room clear a blue sweetness, Like a reflection in the w...

Not any trace of consciousness to be found in D-ÄN's memory. « She » has already go back to work. Helped by XY-TÄH. All the remains of the past are now lived down. T-ÖN's body has been hurled into the depths of this planet, on these dead babies path. T-ÖN'...

Apprehension grips me Deformed army Apprehension grips me Lie inert Apprehension grips me in the shadow What is happened to me ? I see so clear Each insectoid leg marches in unison As smoothly as a black machine The claw's sharp tips they moved aloft...

Mothers loves daylight, however, today, in this gloomy church, she's not complaining. Usually she complains about it all the time. The priest speaks lowly. Mother, who is hard of hearing, again, says nothing. Everybody is watching her. She hates that but, t...

The only way to go back to the surface was to get back in the coffin capsule again and to move backwards a new arrival of dead babies was so needed. V-ÜWA insisted to come up with T-ÖN to correct his mistake and find his son back ! Asleep for a bit less than...

A worrying sight is offered to me, Unceasing bounces of a child's head. On that long white wall of the endless corridor that Paralyses me. I only hear a noise : bangs in my head ! My eyes turn around the door, They persist on a woman with an exhausted loo...

What have I done ? The deep silence is broken I'll fall, you'll fall Can you feel me, and hear me ? Commanded by D-ÄN... (As in your shadow dream, can you lurn the right. Hand lever ?)... - The removing of the pipes out of T-ÖN body was so painful - 

I wander to the labyrinth where the Dead we knew well under our feet Brutal bloodbath Rolled between toes The flesh we once loved... Our feet serve dread fate Our blood is a bridge Feet sangrulate Our blood mixed with theirs Face to the stars Illumin...

My hands press the floor to bear my weight I'm so heavy, too heavy and still cannot breathe My vision fades and veils over my eyes that still stare open. My heartbeat thumps across the dark room Oh, my dear god, the caress of thy blessed hand Suffuses my...

A feeling of liberty invades me. My corpse itself unleashed of this suffering. I'm not sufficiently myself, In this intoxicating spiral taht attracts my damaged corpse, Draining the force that stays me. I forget the attraction Of this earth's eddies which...

On escaping desolation that pervades all human kind I decide to take the potion Feel the sliding needle jabbing deep, to bring surcease... Breathing slows as lifesign goes the dawn of rest could leave me blessed My past life swirls stately round me I con...

_ T-ÖN ? _ yes ? _ Do you know who you are ? _ NO. _ You're my son. _ Yes. _ Soon you'll give an end to the programme. _ Yes. _ T-ÖN ? _ Do you know who I am ? _ Yes. _ Who am I ? _ Mum D-ÄN. _ When the time comes, you'll fulfil the atc meanwhile...

The deadly big blue's won... Don't fight, it's too late now for me ! Shock as the cold and dark of the sea Grabs my limbs and starts to dissolve me... To dissolve me !!! I so gently must let go I see her as she breathes slow I so gently must let go I s...

Old long golden dress slides on I am ready and await transmission of faith and love to all those gathered here today in this holy place. The crossis signed, first prayer intoned Then dizziness somes, and trembling overwhelms my arms and legs. I have to...

The more will be the fall, The more is her face. I watch my mother, She's called Anthea. She carries me down to my chair, I hope that she knows I love her. I'm able to love in spite of my difference. I pose my hands on the keyboard, She takes the other...

I wander the world alone where life once teemed Now there's only the stink of insects in the streams Overrun. The world I once knew... This new world facsimile already bled dry In less than a century ! Newly birthed from ancient death Humanity is crushed...

We are future here today We evolved a different way We are the shadow and reflection from the past We hold the reins... (x10) …to a new world !!! Sadness... Sorrow... Darkness... Sorrow 

Takes forever, hack and server Brittle pupa case stuck upon the fac It inhumes it, it devours it Piercing mandibles, twisting spastic jerks What became of the man ? Is he now an insect ? It fleeds on its shell... Fuel survival instinct, stave the starvin...

When I take away this imaginary life, I begin to hit with some difficulties. These words written : THIS NIGHT I DREAMT 

This survivor will stop indeed the infernal programme, brought up in the blackest and deepest silence. D-ÄN's son will never know life he was made However (the chain goes on) the chain goes on day after day During that time, D-ÄN watches over her son called...

In those times, to allow the population to doing their lives, in peace and harmony, there was an only solution, it has been decreed that all the nurslings had to be made killed... By XY-TÄH during a period of hundred years, and nobody could do anything agains...

Now I am sure someone else is inside me Foetus : "... my brain i suppose ?" I search for him with all of my soul Surely my image is all he can see As I speak of him all the time He speaks to me with the tie that binds His soft molten voice in my head Re...

« The Lord giveth, and the Lord taketh away » The experts bark out warnings : don't trust the insect drug ! Deliverance at this price is doom revisited But I just want a ladder, to flee this pit I've dug I know the cost was so high but had naught else to g...

Everything seems to indicate that There's no time notion No sky, no earth, no noise No difference, no clouds. Everything is light, wisdom and purity. Just a gentle sound that flows from our collective thought. Beauty expresses itself by thought, Though...

Then it genuflects to god And forthwith sucked into the void In its wake an ultra luminescence of purest white. Another moves to do the same If they wish to show me the way to heaven or hell forgive me father for I have sinned... 

The master : « I've carried on my father's researches once he had flew away from the womb of this planet. Who has given to you the permission to bring his corpse on here ? » T-ÖN come close to the master... T-ÖN : « Everything must stop now !! » The master...

We are here. Facing the enormity of anew universe There are many of us. Travelling towards a crimson star encircled by a quartet of tiny white satellites. All is clear. Facing the difference of who or what I have become There's pure silence. We are clo...

Into empty space Into every crack Liquid flows so gently over me It's impossible to tell If I'm drowning from within Or if the liquid that surrounds me Aims to drown I find I am alive But is it too late ? Liquid flows so gently over me It's impossibl...

We are future here today We evolved a different way We are the shadow and reflection from the past We hold the reins, we hold the reins to a new world « Neovocyts we are » Possibilities unfurled A new mankind, build to last, but we live with the sadness...

My soul... my soul... my soul... My immortal soul, has filed away Deserted my form, like morning mist Oozing tranformation, my body changed Translucent fluid wombs me Its metamorphosis... Gone beyond flesh gone beyond stone Through I've changed I am sti...

Then, quickly I fall, My heart on my tongue, My teeth clenched for it can't go out ! 

Nothing I control save a flood of image The pictures blur (my eyes water) They pile on top of me in thousands Above me the shell remains All time suspended just for now Apprehension grips me – flood of image My eyes water... Apprehension grips me – in...

How will she stop this stream ? How can she do it ? An infant must stop D-AN's programme. So « she » has to spare one. The streams of scribs is stopped. XY-TÄH stops his everlasting criminal but unconscious gesture... Faces Faces Faces Faces Faces Faces...

I rest for a moment placing her head down On precarious corpse of a torn apart, a torn apart beast ! I do not know who or where or why we are Running for far too long we are Running for far too long we are Running for far too long !!! I lay down exha...

Now I am gone the people as come, I am reassured so I fly from my earthly remains so fast it's a blur, it's breathtaking. Then I hear an unpleasant dull hum. Other presences around me but I am unable to see or feel them Just harsh shrill sounds that come c...

Somebody please stop or kill me... I cry my suffering to drown the noise sent out by XY-TÄH and D-ÄN. The torture of my little brain is starting now to drive me insane. 

The lick of the clock of the universe stopped As I made the sign of the cross it comes to me : I have the choice To return to the world of men or continue my pilgrimage My ascension to the unknown world that beckoned. What was the truth when I was still al...

Forgive me, I'd rather die. Just remember me, goodbye... 

I strive to forget my real nature. For them every detention is a cure. They claim to know everything. Anthea, at our nightly rendez-vous appease me. Anthea, you fascinate me so much. My suffering is so strong, my howling so weak... My new personality :...

Impulse Causes me to look doawn Faded smile of a mortal stamped right into the ground Can I recall the name of the face ? I'm not blind like my kind The beauty still leaves a trace I know ! This is The one Who pained herself to birth me ! I'm weak and...

T-ÖN goes feebly forward to this light so poor, but nevertheless unbearable for his white eyes. He knows that by turning on the hand lever he would say good bye to the (only) mother he had ever known. I can't do anything else ! What I'm saying, do you under...

Calm returned, it's dark But in the distance something luminous this way comes. Swirling round me, strange beings No, entities. Tall slim, long of limb, arms arc to the knees, I know them ! Their miens fire out of the mirror of my past. As force emits fr...

I can hear myself howl when the window's runges come (My scream becomes shrill). Finding my spirit again, I open my eyes. Anthea's hand is in mine (Our pale faces, our mouths big opening...) I see myself through her. Terrified, I push back their hands....

It is not the desert swallowing me Salt spray in the air, I cannot see ! Deadly ocean lapping near Sea drops act like burning tears Like burning tears Like burning tears Swallowing... me ! I cannot... see ! Ocean lapping... near ! Like burning... tear...

Shout, shout, let it all out, these are the things I can do without Come on, I'm talking to you, come on Shout, shout, let it all out, these are the things I can do without Come on, I'm talking to you, come on In violent times, you shouldn't have to sell...

This time through the night, I stay with her. They're coming to catch her. The director summons me. (The smash of my head...) My glare cannot mix with his. His snake-eyes do not leave me. He fixes me ans I can't do anything. The smash of my head on the...

Wastes are on your body By trying putting to pieces The rest of your limbs From top to bottom Sordid and outrageous emanations Scratching your sense In memory of experiments you made on you In memory of all sufferings you’d to endure Out of breath, c...

Soon it becomes a point on a screen. As a mirror crowd surrounds me. I would like to understand. No! I just want to leave this place. I'd rather still be alive... 

Trapped inside new prison This time of its own making It hides from danger Fuel the survival instinct, now that its' hunger's sated Motionless in the dark There is something strange I know I can sense Is this my spirit I detect inside of me ? Is this m...

The sadness unfurled sombre wings The way I used to be We were all lied to : there's no surprise Now the risk I took gone beyond goodbyes The wings won't ret till : I am cloaked They vow to rescue me Each beat of wing up to the sky that's where I want t...

« Ocean cackles on the sand And it throws the crystals in the air I know we cannot flee Blind and dumb they will never guess » That I have resigned myself to fate And they'll join me, join me in eternity Join me... in eternity Join me... in eternity Th...

Now, I know I'm not lost, I know my journey hasn't ended. I don't even know my own destiny. I know the sphere has come to save me. If I'm immaterial, if I'm only a regard, it's because I left the body which I gave life. I ran away from my physical support when...

We cry out but no-one hears The star furnace dries our tears Deadly rays absorbed somehow, iconoclast This white star that purified, that becam our dark, our dark new god Cleans our thoughts from the past-times, no more link to ties of blood It was a di...

No chance to return to the world where I was born The moment has to be right To move on into that dim light I'm waiting for the moment.... No wish to fall back in cubes and powers ! My biological clock has a voice It's seems that it holds my last choice....

This appeal is too strong for me ! 

In turn, piercing the misty transparency of the water, in wich I repose, these tears rip apart the silence. Feeble, I cannot reach it. Giving birth again, and for always, to the same concentric wrinkles that menace then disappear. These tears fall. Paraly...

Foetus speaking to her : "Still trapped in here this cocoon spherre I'm bathing in this liquid clear Wait for her to have courage To bring us together. I do not want that life outside ! There are so many things to hide From the shallow and the fickle...

She : "dear diary... it's so stupid..." Tears of fear coruscated my face Tears of joy course the lenght of my days Tainted blood tracks in my veins Bleak sadness, he will come soon Will i ever Truly wholly free Of this agony ? It's not left me, this bl...

How long have I been stuck in the ols armchair Staring at the TV screen Without perceiving the pictures ir was conveying It's now swarming with countless white particles The static is crumpling my brain... I feel tired I vainly press the buttons on the re...

I've crossed the threshold, I'm now adapted to the light. But there's nothing to see, no walls, no ground, not one part of my body. I feel attracted and aspirated. I can see sparkling in the darkness, it begins to draw nearer, it's going to take me. I turn tow...

There is a deformed army, all around me... Discerning clearer now my eyes The carapaces glisten in the light And tangled limbs lie inert all around me... There's a deformed army Discerning clearer now my eyes And tangled limbs lie inert The claws serra...

Not the slightest chance to return into the world where I've been alive. Can you spare me few centuries, to wait for the dim light. Can you help me to return in my own sphere? The light I see is closer to me now. If fortune smiles on me, I am now dead! What wi...

Red streams slide down my hand, they are taking my life from me. They flow red as they decorate my skin, will they take my soul away? "Lightness sensation" Will I ever get rid of my anguish? Will my soul be blessed? The red streams decorate my skin, the meande...

My only friend's room is empty now. Two men put me inside. The biggest door closes it's back to me. Mouth open, eyes in the sky... I'm a prisonner of my anguish, Of my corpse (of my own hypnotised mind). I can see her near me like a remembering. Her han...

Never had I reached horizons far away And as I travelled my past streamed far behind Only blood dried and cracked and caked on carapace How far we'd gone I can't say Here they come... How far we'd gone I can't say Here they come Only blood dried, only b...

Pain confines me to bed To look beyond the angles Of this cube not a factor It's partition a cage in my head. I feel I'm afloat in my cell Held by a force that subsumes I'm stretched till I break Is it cuboid or sherical, this hell ? And as if to confo...

Sex at night with nameless boys must go They hurt me with their promises Like their names, their words are dust And left me bleeding in the street. I lie where no-one's been before Away fromtawdry rooms and alleys Secure in knowing he is there To stay w...

I spy him hrought the old mirror Strange this, then, to me Face to face, it's him that I could see This was too much ! My eyesclouded, darker, further Face in my hands Hands that would not dam Tears that burned I will not magnify his image I wish I wa...

Hate, I hate them... them we must flee, I raise her head up to mine Hate, I hate them... them The divine star can't ease the pain Of salt waves crashed on cliffs again ! The saline foam brings a truth to me It bites the shoreline like the prey I'll soon...

The Uly-tohas started to tell him their history. Although still blind T-ÖN felt he had nothing to fear from this people; remains of an hidden civilization so as to avoid their descendant's killing. (T-ÖN lived among his new people during many years). He recov...

I am not supposed to think and then to ask myself questions (????) My only need is to maintain my work ! I am not supposed to live, to think it's just an illusion My only need is to maintain my work ! I'm alone with my oders …All I've alone... An illusi...

The unknown pain fades, the cube now has entirely absorbed me. Through the transparent partitions of my impenetrable cell I scan the infinity in which I'm floating. Strangely the endless wall had disappeared. There's no horizon. What a disquieting situation. I...

A third comes near, arms outstreched, head bent on one side. His face I know from an echo of my memory from my past. He assumes an attitude of prayer and from his dark eyes flood episodes from my past, desires, delights, my torment soar. He takes my hand a...

Full of hope, I flee the physical place where once I felt such love My carnality behiiiind me, I see that I now look like they do Like my companion. Velocity rising we soar through luminous layers Towards my new existence. My cocoon behind me, I abandonne...

Now, iknow I am lost My days are numbered, not powered It seems that my actions are clear Abdicating to fate at what cost ? The gun in one hand My diary in the other. I am writing the words from my head There will be few more, eyes are closed I feel fr...

Sixteen years since I've been home And now I'll never leave This edict given, cast in stone My universe is cubeb, deceived... Obscurity's the cloak I wear Six faces of my room will bear Witness to three by three by three All that they are I'll never be...

The walls of her room are now trim with cushions. Wrapped in her own arms and knelt down in the corner. (She's rocking herself slowly...) Her glance activates, Crossing her goal's thick wall. I seat myself without sound in the other corner. I leave her a...