Spoonboy

"I'm gonna try a soundcheck." "Ok." Alright now, I'm gonna take one more song and this is a little song here, and ya'll decide to record this. And of course they call me guitar or singing Dave, you know. And of course, I'm wanted by the police, you know, fo...

you were the one that i thought i could trust, but when you jumped the gun i knew i had to adjust what constituted someone seeing eye to eye. you saw things too black and white for the shades of gray i chose to stand by. it's just that i get so tired of...

if "listen up, it's your fault, don't try to blame me," is all that you hear when your dear ones fall, expect no help at all. "if you want your old life, then you're crazy." that's how you'll be met when you've spent a night away from home. but when you're...

through themes in recurring conversations i found myself in the towns east of lake michigan. fueled by an unnamed desperation i set in a quest for a shared narration, and i thought back to moments i had listened for. like how the northern lands untouched...

today i wrote a song, and i guess that it's about you, or how i never understood what dancing meant until i met you. in a winter college town you proved that we could move in ways so un-ingenuine. then: on the crowded floor, a little down, ten people over,...

i'm taking an oath: i'm giving my heart away. i'm opening myself up to whatever comes my way. goodbye to old ghosts. goodbye to old memories. i'm clearing nostalgia from the crawl space in my brain, where i spent so long holding myself up to reflect...

california is on the other side of a landmass on this planet, but it's a destination, and if your tired of the notion of escape as a distant thought, that you were stuck in a rut you were born to regret all I can say is "get the fuck out," because i'm not...

carol rhodes knew that she seemed as a sculpture of stone, to those who grew up living history's end. she said "if there's something worse than not living to see what the worth of your work is, it's living to find no one's heard that you fought for it." an...

strange times these events hold: we draw sharp lines with harsh words. we speak similar language, but there’s gaps in the information. you want me out of my skull. i wouldn’t know about that. it’s never quite in control. it always finds a way out. wh...

do you need a messiah? are you waiting to call upon a larger icon to rely on? are you waiting for jesus? are you waiting for mlk to rise from the grave and lead us? don't you know how they needed us? are we searching for guidance? are we scared that the...

dr. irving kirsch has got a study out, you see, about the chemical imbalance of the brain, the controversy centers around the source and cure for that old thing they call depression i read the article in silence while my mother takes her medicine. si...

we've got this burning fascination with non-verbal communication, trying to figure out all things that are being said, in between what's being said, we got a formal education of bad entertainment and misinformation, though by now i'd think we've figured ou...

talking circles around the colors of your flag, i think you're asking too much. these insinuations: you wanna know what i want? you wanna know who i love? and i don't care, i don't care. i'm taking my own route and i'm getting there. i'm taking my...

gerald lee palmer raises his daughter at a house in the suburbs. he spent half of his life making auto parts. he dealt with the layoffs, got an i.t. job, and raised his kids like statistics. now every so often he thinks of his daughter. and she wakes up st...

on top of a rock you sit and watch the sun come up and turn the sky different colors so you stop in awe, think of 'god,' a name you gave for what's the lack thereof across the sea by a coast there is a boy who sees ghosts and they're all his own, and th...

here. i watch myself disappear. i am feeling crazier every second that i lay here. breath in deep. i force myself not to sleep. i am telling myself i just need to live through the next week. mold. in my lungs. i have made a bad decision. i'm not t...

in the humble gaze of a queer adolescence you find that everything’s placed to be questioned through the haze of your foggy eyes. in one 15 year old’s survey of the chemical cures and the therapy, the clouds overhead don’t quite clear away, but tha...

in a small room with the door locked, an attempt to keep your heart stopped. you couldn't talk, they called a professional. so ostentatious, you puffed, they blew your manhood up like a big blowfish. you took to the roles you were reawakened with, and step...

over the course of these times, we have been beaten up like dogs. we have been starved. we have been victims of neglect. and our histories erased, these are the hands around our necks, but when you're squeezed this hard you burst, it's cause and effect. b...

waiting in the attic patiently, i watched as you packed up the car to leave and step into your brightest potential. and though i felt i had something to give, it was lost in the echos of distance. and it dawned on me, the truly temporary nature of...

linus and me, we were talking about first loves, how they burn out, leave you charred and then changed completely. i thought about that one summer burning in the suburbs: me and caroline making eyes and waiting on the subway. she'd sought me out like...

here. i watch myself disappear. i am feeling crazier every second that i lay here, breathing deep. i force myself not to sleep. i am telling myself i just need to live through the next week. mold. in my lungs. i have made a bad decision, i'm n...

i imagine you in a place wide open and beautiful, where the sun sets wildly over the horizon, in the moment you learned we can't concentrate on everything, though it breaks your heart as strongly as you'd like to. these sun bleached memories see you stand...

well the authorities called me up and said "you may well end up in prison." i said "i may well, but you know i'll run away before then." they said "you know we'll catch you." I said "nah, you wouldn't know where to start. you may well put in prison, but...

jamie took the car out, drove downtown for the weekend. at the old abandoned parking lot we found reasons to believe again. crumbling with the walls, we were there with a couple cans of spray paint. jamie said, "i'm not coming home again." me and tammy sn...

this operation, watch out as i make a mess of it. all stuck like tarpits up in my head. this dull perdition, i am motivated by the hell of it or stuck in my tracks, it just depends. this precious lifetime, runs opposite to eternity, infinite timelin...

n the playground you learned how to share with the kids, but you still didn’t feel you fit in. how fitting, your confusion when you turned sixteen you knew how to paint by numbers, but you knew it wasn’t rock and roll. you learned tight pants, spray-pain...

i remember you throwing peanuts at some car off across the highway, saying "it's the principal that stands," as we drove across what seemed like an ocean then. and it was overdue when you told me at a truck stop off in nowhere how you struggle with your pa...

two hours north of the nation's capital, i took a break from what would be my final days in a prison of my own making to see a fiend who had said, "hey come on over," a favorite band, and an ex-lover's ex-lover. and ryan said that he liked my company, so...

"don't stick your hand in there," she said, "it'll shock you." but you want to... and you want to well, momma said, "don't go looking at the sun," but momma don't you, don't you know that's where the fun is? that's where the fun is? it's in the sights of...

i awoke from this dream i was having, kissing on this guy and playing rough in the back. i was a dyke in someone else's body. i shuttered when you came inside me. in the day i let the night time be. i would keep it to myself walking the halls of my high s...

My, how things get stranger We inherit these behaviors See where we got 'em No I'm as much a product as the remainder Of all the advice of those strangers That I never wanted As concerned as we were when we learned How things could turn around I thin...

of the things that have made me, i count myself lucky. i consider it fortune for things like how i wasn't taught at a young age to respect my elders. i thank goodness for my absence of a father. he could have taken me out. we'd have gone camping. i could h...

oh you sweet talking child, lord, don’t you know somebody’s calling at your doorstep? oh you sweet talking child, lord, don’t you know somebody’s calling at your doorstep? oh you sweet talking child, lord, somebody’s fallen hard, now you’re watching...

i thought again about ya eric. i took a bus past the house i grew up in, but it’s just some walls to keep the warm air in. you’re just a number on a scrap in my pocket, and these allusions to home, they found a place in me too. i used to long for som...

i will be with my mom at the end of her life as i know that she would be for mine. it's not obligation that leads me to say it, it's just how i intend to spend the time. no person who gives out a part of themselves will ever be truly forgotten. these par...

while moonlighting in the service the bourgeois elite, i caught lunch with a party of pseudo-environmental executives, because i heard they'd pick up the bill. and then the billionaire took a seat at the head of the table and wiped his ass with the digni...

we took our cues from the side of the road, and took the billboards as signs that cast an omniscient shadow. that by design, seemed to imply cooperation. and while trying to find the words to say, "this doesn't represent us" we poured over maps and in da...

expired bus pass, cough up change you found, let this be your best luck. you’re tired, caffeine compounds, make your rounds, you’ve been so fed up. glassy eyed computer romance couldn’t last, see you don’t dance at bars. one night off once a week...

what you want is community. what you're looking for is roots. what you need is the answers. and you won't find them in religion, no not in religion. what you're looking for is love. did you find it in alcohol? or did you find that you get frustrated b...

You were the type to keep things moving along Things will collapse and they may be replaced But it takes a push, standin' in the front lines And it takes a push to make things happen Though all along, there'll be reformist apologists All so critical if w...