Pill Friends

abortion ceremony i don’t care about you anymore your mom seems happy so I guess your happy too i want to watch you drink your tears body’s shaking incestuously pictures taken to be forgotten well who even seems to care smell like cigarettes...

a vacant wrist is a precious thing cleansed of your savior’s filth perversion always finds a way it will it will it always will tying nooses on the Christmas tree christ child hang next to me crying out for your mother’s warmth your parent's sins...

named death danielle hell’s favorite daughter i want to hold you desires wrong leave me alone i don’t need you danielle i want to hold you i want to feel you i want to hold you ill sacrifice you on denial’s cross next to father, son, holy gh...

darkness occupies what blatant love denies to fill a certain void which i seem to enjoy it always leaves me blind inside a broken place love can only heal that which isn’t real let me stay gone darkness understands gnawing on your skin t...

trying to make love to road kill passing scripts for demon chills people calling out your name waiting to rape your pain die in shame, die in shame fever breaks, its all the same 

trying not to breathe it comes so naturally lead me to what’s not there i still don’t care lead me to what’s not right its all I know all that is will not be have you seen heaven’s light its just like darkness just not as bright it will fors...

nicole will you carry my bible it’s dragging me down and i cannot swim above this ground my head is numb and my lungs are shot i am something you could do without so forget me i’ll fade away but when i’m gone devour me nicole your face is d...

spirit on the back of my neck where have you been looking in the mirror i cant see you i know that you're there my neck aches everyday spirit you make it true find another way to become blunt whisper to my thoughts i've lost the will again to make all t...

Sitting on the clouds, smoke coming from my seat I can play basketball with the moon, got the whole world at my feet Playing touch football on marijuana street Or in a marijuana field, you are so beneath my cleats Get high, so high that I feel like lying...

my sweet lord was at the mobile home softly crying painting nails eating flesh drinking defiled blood with everyone i’ll rise to die again you won’t find my body cause i made poor friends bloody lips taking sips in what i’m putting out now d...

i kissed my dad today only to feel his pain he says son its all the same but oh it comes back again my mother kisses me goodnight sweet dreams i know the lord will hold you tight but when I look into her eyes i see the things she does despise i...

smoke the tar down in yr lungs only feel to feel so numb drown yr child in birthday cake for he was happy then tear the skin off of yr face try and recognize its place but even if it wasn't there you still just shouldn't care pretend that you...

cut off my hands theyre only pain i’m trying not to mix our blood its not the same its all the same getting high never coming down cut off my hands they’re only pain i’m trying not to fix our lungs they’re not the same to fix our lungs...

goodbye hell goodbye god goodbye sun and trailer home goodbye mall and step dad goodbye flesh goodbye drugs i’m all done i’m so gone i’m all done i’m so wrong i’m all done i’m so gone i’m all done playing mall goth take my corp...

blessed prostitute looking to get stoned he who is full of sin will you cast the first stone lover in darkness will you be a true friend and take this tired dog back to sleep will you please murder me for all my sins i’m tired now put me to...

strip me of my self it’s useless here pale light seems so dark swallowed in blood its sweetness is fulfilled in our emptiness killing us so gently i don’t care all that is still remains waiting patiently to end so leave me to die...

when you leave my eyes grow dark drowning in empty space incessant thoughts don’t subside next to jesus christ who should have died depression comforts me in my favorite misery incessant thoughts don’t subside next to jesus christ who should hav...

alone again with no friends what did you expect from a selfish and narcissistic suburban white trash christ? who builds you up to watch you bleed away into his false needs you know he doesn't care and he'd leave you if he could you long for...

going out my own neighborhood saying death is my only friend so ill stare into the electric lights that gladly blackout the night and ill waste away and ill try not to make a sound ill eat my pills and fall asleep now starring at yr blank walls...

tears from your broken life suffocate my desire you put the words into my mouth but i can’t even make a sound i know i’ll let you down you said that you’d love me if i would consume your sin and learn to die slow i know i never could i know...

dip me in promethazine i don't want to leave watch me burn so slowly in heaven im deceived living in a failed life looking for a way out drown me in yr apathy hold me in yr misery persecute my children their hanging on the wall gratefully...

hope you’re doing well in your own hell sitting across from you and coming down again i hear you say goodbye as you walk into the woods i know the dogs will find you and they’ll lick your bones all clean invoking silent screams as their teeth hit your...

calling out to samael cast from heaven without a hell find yrself in another day watch it waste away into a past life which you leave behind i want to watch yr body glow i want to see yr parents cry i want to watch yr house burn down i want t...

Slit your wrists to bleed out slow Inside your sadness, inside your home Fake it till you’re real You can't recognize yourself in anything Satan is your master now Satan is your master now Satan is your master now Satan is your master now Patient sui...

waking up in suffering same as i was yesterday cold breath speaks kindly tells me to go back to sleep words that no one hears pass through paralyzed in visions of darkness i close my eyes i lay my head down to rest but sleep never comes lo...

toothless dogs eating candy as the sweetness turns to dust feeling bitter, as they crawl into their abyss if they want they’ll drink from the river if they want they’ll be made new but they know they’ll never sleep again ugly angels, hold their...

every morning i take my pills and you do not know me. i watch the birds weep across the sky as your eyes change a brilliant blue, a soft green. you can see beyond me. you look at me with grey in january though it is warm still, we cannot see the ocean in any d...

waking up wasted on your front lawn no more death and no more life god will you carry me but god wasn’t there when I got home i don’t want to seem real the sun mocks my blind eyes laughing at me as I vomit now god will you hold me all god did...

I want to kill or to be killed i pet my dog as i slit his throat i skin him whole and i wear his furs to school for looks now i feel good i want to kill or to be killed my dog licks me as he sinks into my meat good boy he wears my tattered skin...

getting into your car tell me that im worthless getting into your car i know that im worthless feeding demons candy i know that its pointless feeding demons candy i know that im pointless hanging from your noose you say its painless drinking bleach...