Penance

Hear me now, my tale to be told Of dreams of greed and sins of old The tide breaks calm and closes in The sails catch wind my tale begins... Journey out to sea, Lust and greed follow me Ride the path to shame, Winds of deceit call my name Shipwrec...

When the night is gettin' old And the air is gettin' colder You know I'll never fold up I turn my back on fear... As I lie awake alone And the voices come to taunt me Every night another haunting Driving me beyond my years... When sleep finally flies...

Sometimes I wanna cut myself So you'll flow out of my veins The kiss that tainted my blood Is beating down my heart again I want to bleed you from my heart I want to bleed you from my veins I want to kill you... in my mind I want to bleed away the pain...

All this suffering yet I cannot feel it Words of consolation I bring to you I am torn by grief and sorrow For me there's no tomorrow Hiding under your shroud of security For your peace of mind I've lived and learned with gifts bestowed on me But I was...

Gaunt figures of a dismal world Cast in grey with tattered flags unfurled Gone beyond just me and you The perfect symmetry of being ripped in two Blue is the color of life While you're cast in grey All the years of tomorrow That are gone today Pallid...

This mortal path I tread its trials are killing me As swirling winds of change now blow inside of me And clouds of ash have blinded eyes that once could see The path to happiness that lies in front of me Looking down at circle number nine Where my soul w...

Breathing in this life I'm livin' yeah The taste is bitter sweet All the hardships endured I anticipate The time when I'm solid Looking past the downpours To a day that's cloudless Now, each day I pray The turmoil will pass I'm hoping that today is...

I've opened myself up Exposed my vulnerability Yet all you can do is sit there in silence Leaving me empty God forbid you should show some emotion God forbid you should ease my pain God forbid you allowed me security That all my words have not been in...

Life's so fast, got to make it last You've got to let your feelings show Don't have all the answers to cure life's cancer I've been around enough to know Life... another cross that we bear Hope... amidst the pain and despair Release your pain World's...

Crawling through your mind A cancer on the inside Spreading sickness 'til no life remains You let me gain a foothold Now, I'll never let go I will choke your spirit down to its last breath You are dead already I'm just placing pennies on your eyes I...

As I lay here my lifeblood is flowing Can you feel all of the pain I'm knowing Cannot understand but still I know feelings Your frightful existence has me reeling What importance do I hold for you Just a status symbol of the things you do You can rationa...

The memory lives in me to this day I awake that morning to sorrow and to pain I stand silent amidst the cries Told your soul's been called Robbed of all your guidance When it was needed most Drown me in a sea of empty Deliver me to nothingness Beyond...

Reaching for the heavens But my hands are full of holes The holes in my hands Won't let me grasp the stars Reaching for the heavens But my hands are full of holes The holes in my hands Won't let me grasp the stars So long I've been a dreamer My head...

Do you believe in me; I don't think you can A mind too small to see, through the obvious... Unperiled extremes of inner fright Blocked from view of unborn sight Of things not whole and yet complete Of all things that are seen and unseen You mock you...

Hail the master of manipulation Bow to the slave of desperation Guttural star Pawn to fame Use one last to do your bidding Ego trip fascade; Senseless living You defy my very being Act a good life, but live a bad act Breath in the glory, but choke...

A bleaker day I've never seen Reality has settled in Cause when I look at you I'm sick inside When I think that what we shared has died Love dies... only pain survives The cruelest of all illusions Darkest of all deceptions I naively believed that lov...

If you could see the world In the same light as I do But you don't So you can't and you won't You'll never understand my views And I don't care You can't relate I'm past the point of hate And you know it I've got my heart on my sleeve For you to lov...

Out of the blackness Comes the saving light Lifts me on wings To a dizzying height I can't believe it I know I need it Revel in feelings Of borrowed time Taking for granted The things I thought were mine Time is coming near The day that I...

From the inside looking out Distorts what I'm about Strains from emptiness Change to bitterness You have turned me To what you thought I was I don't care now The past is now the past The scars inside don't heal The pain no more can I feel I'm callou...

All through life Whatever I've been dealt I've taken it in stride And I've always felt Sure of myself Confident with pride Rode through it all Grounded from inside Always Even through The adversity I never let the pain Break the will in me It ma...

Here I stand looking into you No need to tell me what you're going through Cause man I've been there myself When life dealt out pain I'd swallow it and hold it in Then I learned to unlock the scream Buried deep within Now parts standing still are movin...

You pretend to be my friend But you can't make that which isn't real You fill your mind with facts But you will never get the feel It's not quite right You're not what you seem One part false Two parts obscene Back stabbing hypocrite Won't le...

Emotions rise like wisps of smoke Too soon to dissipate Warm days now blowing colder Sunny days all turn to grey Solitude can bring on peace Or a piece of loneliness Drifting on a jaded sea Losing what I thought was me The sound of silence is deafen...

Sit and watch the world, I contemplate Existence ill legitimate, a quirk of fate Is man of God or just Nature's folly Still with intelligence, we all are crawling One step forward and two steps back Bring man's destined descent into black What does...

Obsessed with this therapy It's a reflection of self My motivation is clear It's just how I felt This machine that I've created Really pulls me through Like no other For no other It's just for me... maybe you Sometimes I'm on the outside Looking in...

It's on the wings of sin that I've been flying And your face is the sun that I have touched And in the gardens of delight where I've been lying Suddenly there's darkness instead of love And now Eden's gonna fall It's you that I looked to, to heal this h...

Looking at changes beyond my control with hesitation Setting in my life new goals - a liberation Making my way blindly through life I see what I can Sooner than later life takes its toll - a boy to a man Wait - I see a chance at the window Fate - mustn'...

All you feel is pain Huddled there in the dark Looking for the last bad reason To end it all Well I've been watching you In your self made hell And you don't see the pain You cause yourself Won't you see the light? Won't you see the light? In a wor...

I, too, hear the cracking The fury of the wind The sound of everything crumbling And fear it will not mend You are one I've known forever Yet your face has changed Your soul is somehow different Its aura rearranged I've let too much slip through And...

I can't right my course Could it be any worse Don't want to be A slave to monotony A life without a dream is living a wasted life No dream, no hope, no time, no wife The longer the wait, the more the hesitancy Must get away soon or this place is th...

I can't right my course Could it be any worse? Don't want to be, A slave to monotony A life without a dream is living a wasted life No dream, no hope, no time, no wife The longer the wait, the more the hesitancy Must get away soon or this place is t...

Do you believe in me, I don't think you can A mind too small to see, through the obvious Unperilled extremes of inner fright Blocked from view of unborn sight Of things not whole and yet complete Of all things that are seen and unseen You mock you...

The astral doors are opening Bidding me to step on through A cosmic finger points the way Past skies of black and seas of doom Transcending now this mortal form Solar sailing on stellar waves My soul has gone beyond time itself Mind expanding through c...

Envisioned fear I dream of you My time is drawing near To bring me through Are you heaven sent? Or a messenger from hell? How can I tell? How can I tell? Sweetly smiling Or mocking jest Tenderly beguiling As I await my final breath This time I'v...

So long I've searched for answers to my life The great mystery of being I've yearned for validation from without When I should have looked within In every mind resides the soul, the second self The you so seldom known The you that holds the light to cut...

What is real and what is fantasy Are you who you are or what you want to be Your kind breeds conceit Fact and fiction conceived You don't know you only see Words not deeds A perceived perception or factual entity All you know is who I'm supposed to be...

Cosmic pillars stand I'm my way Shooting stars soon fall Airtight blackness everywhere You cry and I'm appalled Vortex spins Without fear End of all Is drawing near Screaming shards rip into me Others I can't feel Lookin' 'round parallel corners D...