Old Gray

[Charlie:] Ailments become fragments of my imagination; I am encumbered by nothing. Hands in hand with a ghost of your former self, someone I once held away from the torments of situation; no longer am I strong enough- another voice has taken over,...

I still remember the hotel room where I sat. Fleeing the hand that gripped you. I gave you words, they were inadequate. Couldn't admit that I abandoned you. My fear grew, ever stronger. My delusion cast about me, a blanket to my conscious mind. And my pa...

I used to be scared of death, but now its my only friend. I found comfort in it's embrace and solace in the grace that it leaves me each night. I am no longer afraid to die because my world's become so empty You were so young, I owe this all to you....

My lungs are empty and i’m trapped beneath ice and snow, where my words are spoken through broken teeth that chatter. So shatter my frozen heart; watch these bones as they fall apart. We’ll stand as tall as mountains, with our arms reaching towards the west. W...

There was traffic in Austin When you gave yourself up To the crushing release of a car. Long live the devil and all hail the saints Chewing up stars with their names. Angel, I feel your pain I understand why you'd want to take it all away. I still thi...

and like two birds of the same feather, i was reluctant to let you go. i know it's hard to fly with clipped and bloodied wings, believe me when i say that i've tried. you remind me of why i hate myself: you're everything i'm not, i hate myself because...

Each night, I decorate the walls of my room with sketches of a city I've never seen. (I've held the same air in my lungs for the past seventeen years- I think it's time for a fresh breath, but only as time will allow. Do you think that you can trick time into...

And they said that one day I'd be fine, And they said that my whole life. So I kept one foot forward, But lately I've been wearing thin. I don't feel safe in my skin anymore. I don't feel safe in my skin. So I guess that I can't be, I can't be myself a...

Where are you? In a time where I needed you most I selfishly prayed for a ghost Or sign that your spirit's alive to give me hope. Where are you? 

Cam: Did you think about all the things you said to me? Do you think that they helped quell the Hell in my head? In my heart I was torn apart. In my dreams I’ve been thinking of a way to disappear. Well my greatest fear was that I would disappoint all the ones...

Hands held above our heads, held out as far as they can stretch. I’m trying to hold on to clouds that are always outside my reach. I guess you didn’t notice- I fade with the setting sun. I’m no more alive than the empty home where I grew up. I find my lif...

Cam: I watched the sun set in your eyes for the last time. I thought you died that night. You called me to tell me you wouldn’t survive. I heard the wind blowing through your hair.  Becca, Cam: I would’ve given anything to be there. I could have sworn that I...

Painting broad strokes of black brings blood down my head. I can't handle anymore phone calls telling me another friend is dead. I miss your laugh and I miss your smile. It'd be nice to hear from you every once in a while but you're gone. I will never be...

I've never been one to say goodbye When i found out you died I was left with my teeth in my head No, no, no reason Just another leaf blown away with the seasons Thirst to hear you smile Every once in a while It's running laps in my head Still i hear...

I’m tired of giving you examples of times where I have said things I’d later regret. This is the last time I’ll admit to having periods of self doubt, feeling sorry for myself. I’ve spent the last four years making new best friends who, after a few...

And every moment I lose without you, fighting interference between my mind and the tip of my tongue, I am lost. Tripping over my words, over insanity, racking my every thought, drowning this conviction behind an apathetic mask. A numberless cigarette lit twixt...

And every moment I lose without you, fighting interference between my mind and the tip of my tongue, I am lost. Tripping over my words, over insanity, racking my every thought, drowning this conviction behind an apathetic mask. A numberless cigarette lit twixt...

Cam: Well I’ve changed except my heart still beats too fast and my lungs still collapse and my legs still shake. I once thought love was real when we sat atop that hill and looked at cars below. We used to grow. You kissed me on the forehead and told me that y...

My lungs are empty and cracking and broken. I'm drowning in sorrow and coughing up dreams. And I can't make it on my own. I'll try to hold my head up high until I finally die. And I faded away. 

There's a girl, a tall girl, with eyes like honeycomb and jasmine. Sometimes she blows cigarette smoke in your face in the break room, and you call that love. Not because it is, but because you want it to be, because you're so goddamned lonely, so goddamned un...

I’ve never felt so alone. I miss my family, I miss my home and I miss your smile. I remember the days of church pews and sunsets and long endless drives to the angry heart of nowhere. I remember the way that you kissed me. I remember the way that you said good...

I have been waking up with blood in my mouth most days. Choking on the metallic taste that coats my tongue. Can't remember if I promised today would be the last, if so I lied. That infinitesimal moment of my true thoughts will fade. Overcome by my need fo...

Brendon put down the knife, I love you too much to let you take your life And I won't let you try again. I won't let daisies grow through your head. I won't let daisies grow through your skin. If this is the last thing I write, I swear that I'll think...

[Cameron:] How I wish i could go back to the day where my heart was still working and I still had a brain, where I felt no pain. But that ship has sailed, it’s been lost out at sea for too long- it has been just you and me for too long. How I wish yo...

We live in a dream and, when our lives are over, we’ll finally wake up and realize the world is asleep. We’ll empty our lungs and strum out our heartstrings; we’ll simply wake up and realize the beauty in life. One day we’ll scream and get rid of our d...

Charlie: My blinding distraction gone in seconds for hours of your wasted moments I dug a grave for my purpose. Tuned in to a bright future sat front row as it crumbled and fell. Tie me up nice so I don’t have to feel this relief flowing through my veins I...

[Sound clip from the pilot episode of Freaks & Geeks] [Lindsay:] Sam. Did Mom and Dad tell you I was the only one with Grandma when she died? [Sam:] No. [Lindsay:] Yeah. They went down to the cafeteria to get some coffee. And all the sudden Grandma l...

Raph: If something in he past can teach me, I’ll look back to find it. I swear I’ll feel brave someday, just not yet.  Cam, Charlie, Raph, Nick, Jon: My heart stopped.  Cam: I’ve been cutting ties with emotion, I’ve been trying to get by without devotion....

Raph: I’m still surrounded by these four blank walls. Every picture I’ve painted has been taken down. The only difference: I don’t forget the stars anymore. I still believe they will never collapse. Maybe I’m just naïve but I wish and wish and wish. Why am I s...

You said that everything would be okay and that we could settle down in a house by the river. Well, look at us now. I don’t know where I am and I don’t know where I will go. Maybe someday you will love me but I don’t think that I can wait. 

My dear I do fear that nothing will ever be the same and all these broken homes and broken bones will share the blame. All of my friends have their futures planned; I’m not a part of any of them. I wish the clouds would move away but my best friend moved...

[Raphael:] Every day is the same charade: weary ghosts frequenting their favorite haunts. We’re all tired but no one ever moves. [Cameron:] No effort is made until we forget and fade away. [Raphael:] I always found it strange how you found comfort...

I’m not ready to end my life, I want you to let me live, but I understand in time, everything dies. All I have will fall apart, but you’ll be okay. All that’s left inside my heart will soon decay. So I wrote this in your bed while you were fast asle...

Cam, Charlie, Raph, Nick, Jon: I’ve been digging a grave with the parts of my brain that still work. They’re burying me with my dead dreams, my dead dreams.  Cam: I still feel a heart that's beating but I can't feel love, I still feel a life inside me but I...