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theres bee pollen under neath my tongue i wish i could say that this is not a metaphor pesticides killed my family fungi have gills so they must be breathing too pesticides killed my family 

coughing up blood onto a silver platter to give to my sisters birthday dress spiriting blood onto the hospital doctors who know that stitches wouldn't fix this tree skin cardigan tied my around my waist waste leaves on my thick skin i'm alone with com...

chewing yellow petals so i can blame the pit in my stomach on force fed pollen only drawing sigils in green pen spending the last 3 years giving the maggots something good to to feast upon they'll like the taste of your bitter skin fuck you good luc...

stood up for my old self with an empty stomach and a sink full of rot pockets full of lucky silver dollars and masochism trading my charm for a plot in an attic full of rubble cleaning my arms yet another time and selling souls to my ex-lover o...

second guessing mirrors to half heartedly expect that 4 am glances to be met with untouched flesh swallow wisdom teeth one like a vitamin swearing they'd erode my already fragile esophagus worship my esophagus steady your shaky hands and change the lightbul...

mama, fight it from down deep use the strength your father gave you he didn't give you much else bite it from the roots of your teeth I know they grow down deep you're out of breath and your only doing the fucking laundry 

momma, fight it from down deep use the strength your father gave you he didn't give you much else bite it from the roots of your teeth i know they grow down deep you're out of breath and you're only doing the fucking laundry momma, i know your roots...

laying face down in yellow flowers i reek of blood clotts and of skinned knees snapping bone and burning trees ill wait to punch the antique bathroom sink until my knuckles start to bleed all the heirloom photographs of dead deer wont cover the holes...

i need to learn how to shut my mouth and readdress my relationships with rainclouds i've been wearing the same shirt for too long and the seems near my neck are sowed with sweat wondering why modest mouse always references the freeway and thinking o...

leaving fingernails forgotten tracing siglis in my skin burning leaves and stacking ashes into piles set to cope with esplanades soaking clothes with muddy waters leaving salt stains on shoulders meant for sinking teeth into skipping rocks and the pebbles fro...

only tangible through handwriting on a scrap of paper stuffed inside a box zoning out to hymie's basement once again to remain on the right side of sane insane i'm unsure as of yet on how to determine an encyclopedia from a landslide lost li...

fortified my blood tearing thorns off of rose stems framing flowers framing rotting faces for future reference ill be the one to sprinkle the dirt first ill be the one to sprinkle the dirt on i am ghost writing the perfect eulogy inside my head for my...

this cant be me out of focus and out of touch shaking and dehydrated resenting several mirrors too much nibbling numbers to make it by, a sullen body left me feeling spry valuing the negative space more than my frame its fucked up but i just ca...

daisies cant help you they're just fucking flowers numb to the touch as minutes crept into hours harsh light on white lace i see right through it the sun had already set and i knew who's at fault for it i said no but you looked right through i...

our closet was full of deer we pulled out from the water collected each tooth onto silver saucers waded to our necks in tall grass to retrieve them returning to sleep in houses best left condemned with secrets beneath the floor boards that i...

framed flowers and framed faces tossed in a pile of soot by the front door railroad tracks and broken pains of glass stuck in the knuckles of middle fingers smashed up hands and blood red acttics i wish Gabi well i wish her well days didn't pass in peace but...

iodoform it pulls and it poisons my insides now whenever it strokes them once i touched tendon and actually craved it and sought it out on purpose to twist my veins on a podium and confiscate my only source of holy water i stopped after 12 times when i finall...

Strayed from currency charged demons living in the little boys closet. Only saw the light of day when sneaking out to paint the houses black, Containing ladies in the walls preforming dance routines in my kitchen. Judging time through conversations witnesse...

keep the sound didn't know id miss it seeping from pale pores leaking through linen forcing paths across winter 6 months too long i felt nothing promising anything i became null of noise consumed by black walls i never wanted but still...

lock my mouth and throw away the key don't follow me theres lakes inside of my new lungs i'm filling up barbed wire on the back of my tongue can't speak without stuttering i'm so sick of walking home with spikes between my knuckles i'm filling up 

carrying houses on their shoulders like a two faced back pack hiding from their bruises by painting their lips red and the mannequin mothers are exchange guilty faces nothing but smiles and aprons in their places its all good and well until you look bene...

little deer skeleton, maggots crawl out of your eyes your momma left you behind by surprise little skeleton behind my neck of the woods ill lay down besides you and finally be able to rest placing daisies upon my chest skin can rift like milk between...

measuring spaces between eyelids with rule of tongue and tunneling vision suck marrow through straws to replace dripping finger tips for an open water sanctuary should have scraped skin samples for keep in jars of isopropyl alcohol labeled for each time that...

i am worth more than a loud lingering voice that pleaded lovely though all i heard was noise or scattered static at best and MKUltra screeches that scared the cat i decayed at your feet while you talked sweet to fresh faces but i'm honestly gl...

shielding my skin from skin 'cause its been a while and i'm scared if i'm being honest gifting wisdom in the form of rotting teeth to girls with weird eyes when in doubt just talk about the weather gifting wisdom in the form of tooth decay to girls w...

spending 3 years digging pollin out from underneath my skin feeling like i'd never win telling time with the progression of tooth decay i know you'll never win you will never win to put a rotting body in a fancy box 

playing opossum in a pile of soil building myself a new body from the rubble growing tall from the dirt i was buried in planting maggots in your skin hoping that they will dig in i am taller because i stepped in with my feet first playing opossum in a...

hiding face in the stagnant space between your breaths hexing harshly with a dying pen for this speaking soft and stuttering through breaths from a chest thats best left fluttering 6(66) years left with empty hands, menacing clenching sheets in those...

wolf crying milk hog rooster teeth pigeon toes tearing skin from the black widows and taking apart the radiator at 4 am to find the source of the clicking noise that fills my head to the brim when i fall asleep i cant seem to shake the skin cells fro...

i've had better offers than hands held out at half mast weighted in my chest theres no heart that could hold on to this worn down but still loved, still loved i am the stained rings in your favorite cup am i a ghost or a human dream? heaven w...

send my grievances to your bedsheets may they be alive and well entombed distress signals 10 feet into the ground you call your responsible because it doesn't hurt to try i'm laying in a field of yellow flowers flowers with my arteries choked by eart...

hollowed out bones displaying marrow on mantles embedding daisies in my spine cant dig them out i already tried mourning prior versions of me stuffed slick in levi pockets i still feel you in my sleep sometimes sixteen sitting stagnant and sickly...

if i still had a soul to sell id feel more complacent with a chest left less vacant never mind that, still marooned like a ship in a shoreless sea don't look for me numb, to a body reeking havoc hexing vowels with hands trembling the lowl...

the bones in my garden seem to haunt me the bones in my body are nearly as daunting cant hold this much weight for too long never as strong as need be (fuck you, good luck) subjecting yourself to the well water to find peace with the rats in...

crushed dandelions and little yellow flowers imprints from the impact from the impact time is on the other team don't stray too far from me 

indistinct brings cast distinct darkness tangles of bushes and brambles unseen by harsh footed people in their own worlds of voids filled green pulling bodies back from leaves branded in meadows as medals another silence deflected flirting...

oh my god theres a parasitic army inside of your thyroid I have a sword but i'm not ready to swing it at your throat your lymph nodes turned into a serpent and its trying to swim but i'm not ready for you to put your feet in I don't want this beetle to j...

should have given sutures instead of shards to cracked blue caulking of the walls they would have had more to return to me turn to me i listed different reasons opposed to starting every season exposing major veins and holy water hold on to your...

i don't exist as the cells that i was rather the dirt that covers old rabbit holes i never had any heroes or paths and i think i'm ok with that i'm not a woman but worn machinery solving secondary math for keep the same to hold on to are you unab...

if clean lines are godly then i must be dirty 4 years is too long to hold breath i am caked and cracked its insignificant but i still cant forget it throwing fistfuls of sand into the ocean as if your trying to replenish it relentless at that...

chasing god in smoky bedrooms for years but a goddess cant be a bullshitter picking daisies with blistering fists gifted to the weeks wasted bickering strung out and sick spinning spider webs from gauze and punishing sleeves worn without cause i...

I've spent the last two whole months building card houses in the piles of ash from the house fire that burnt the burning building to the ground I know it doesn't mean a thing once the flames hit their highest points i am struggling to rebuild my nest that t...

tied all my teeth to door nobs and slammed them plucking petals please don't fixate on the stem on necks and station wagons tracing fibrous thread tried to draw straws but skipped stones instead driving sly with eyes shut tight on the 805 i cried...