Jessica Lea Mayfield

God is punishing someone you love He would've gone too far if He were anyone else You say your prayers then you do it yourself You say God is testing us, and I have failed Well I don't wanna be tested by God or anyone else With blasphemy so heartfelt I...

dear winterbird how long can you last before it gets too cold and the earth asks you back dear ?? you're ready for the sun the old man is leaving a longer day's begun suddenly i can see blue skies again hear you say there's nothing less that our he...

I don't need help and I don't want charity I just want someone to be kind to me I don't need money or a place to stay I'm too alone for my own day I'm not gonna let it bum me out too hard I'm not gonna let it bum me out too hard I'm not gonna let it bum me ou...

If you want I could go There's no need for me to stay and be a burden If you love me let me know There's no need for me to sit here and wonder I spent the whole night by myself Wondering who you talk to who you tell I spent the whole night waiting for you to...

I was walking with your left hand in my back pocket And I stared at the sky while you kissed me And you were running away, away from everything And I stayed behind so you'd miss me And all these words would sound so sweet I could care less about you Care less...

I don't wanna let you down If you fall I will fall behind you And if I climb to greater heights I will throw a ladder down for you It's a shame that you ask me to choose between him and you Cause baby you know the answer Oh it's lonely here without you Oh it'...

I can feel you watching me And I'd give most anything To know as you're sitting There with your legs crossed and no Clothes on what you are thinking Of... I'll do anything I'm surprised that I'm not Dead yet. Maybe I'm disappointed But we won't get into that...

I wanna hold you close to me I wanna hold somebody I wanna wake up and feel free I wanna hold you close to me I wanna miss you when you're gone I wanna kiss you when you're close to me Pretend that nothing could go wrong Whatever it is just let it be I wanna...

Now my love is not around Cause I did something i swore i'd never do Then I made a lie If I could've kept it it would've saved my life But I can't lie to you, love And I can't lift my head up And I can't sleep knowing you want nothing to do with me You deser...

i feel safe now i feel good i'm not lonely anymore i've got something i shouldn't have and it's you and i've got you to hold me tight and i've got you to call when i'm sad and i've got you to kiss me goodnight please don't ever leave me behind when i'm alone...

Is this a baby, are you out of my life Is this a baby, it scares me when you're mad I did all I could for you there's nothing left inside me I gave my heart and soul to you, I let you lay beside me I did all I could for you, and now all I wanna see Is a smile...

You got me where you want me but, I ain't all there. my head is gone, my brain is fried, 'nd I'm standing right here. You can touch me if you want to, oh I don't really care But I have ruined everything that I ever loved. I guess we have to play the cards we...

The shotgun's under the futon This is not my idea of fun I wish happiness on everyone I know The human body's an amazing thing Bruises heal and your mind can change Can we convince ourselves we're not what we need? Did I know in my heart I was lying to you W...

I'm afraid of the party Please leave me alone Don't fucking invite me I probably won't go When we were in the meadow I believed you Can I trust you now, for sure? The devil's in the detail Should've left 'em all out The devil's in my head now It feels so ful...

Standing outside a window On the second floor Voices inside calling Knocking on my door Before I jump into something that I'm not ready for... [Chorus] Gotta wash you offa my hands Gotta wash you off Every single DNA strand Gotta wash you offa my hands Writ...

hate has brought me up the stairs into your house i'll not let hate be the one to make me naked for you my self-esteem is heating up the room you're intimidating as all hell but i ain't scared of you i know how you work i am just like you no matter...

Where did my self-control go Did it rise up from my body When I answered the phone And you told me not to lie to you And I decided to tell the truth But I ain't gonna change for nobody at all I'm starting to like this new love I have found I don't wann...

Any tips on how to feel more human? Or how to un-dehumanise someone - I'm only asking for a friend Is there no-one it's safe to connect to anymore? Is there no-one it's safe to connect to anymore? Been through hell there's no telling what might happen in my...

I tried to leave He wouldn't let me out He shook me and he cried and he said 'please stay' So I stayed a little longer My heart wants all the bad things I used to let it have My lonely hell is waiting for me I'm always wrapped up in it Whatever it might be I'...

[Chorus] I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but sorry is gone I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but sorry is gone I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but sorry is gone I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but sorry is gone Can't understand the way you feel It's safe to say I've never tried Help me forget what I'...

you're the sun and the moon and all the stars you're my first thought in the morning and you are the wind as it blows over my head you're the one that i love best you're the reason that i breathe and that i lie you're the reason that i left my friends behind...

'Too much terrible Best to not talk about it.' That type of thinking Lets the world forget about it Everywhere I went Felt like something was missing He's promising I don't have to be afraid of him I can speak to you in song But I can't look you in the eye I...

kiss me like you love me, i'll pretend we've never lied cause we both have our demons crawling around inside and i'll hold you like i want you to hold me and i'll talk to whoever i god damn wanna oh i'll talk to whoever i wanna oh the world is moving fast bu...

If everyone would talk about it No one would be ashamed Got a purse full of pills But they're all in my name I'm a good girl now Won't hand them out I'm a good girl now Won't hand them out [Chorus] I wish you could see me now But no one can see me now I wish...

Hold me close and tell me how you feel Tell me love is real Words of love your whisper soft and true Darling, I love you Let me hear you say the words I long to hear Darling, when you're near Words of love your whisper soft and true Darling, I love you 

You say you're tortured I've been there - I know what that feels like Have you been tortured? Have you ever been buried alive? I try to fight the sadness I try to fight I try to fight the sadness But the world won't stop You look so helpless I've been there...

It's quiet where we're living I can hear the [?] shooting I can hear the race cars driving Can they hear us white-trash fighting? Get outta my, get outta my, get outta my house Get outta my, get outta my, get outta my house We fell in love again You learned...

Come get me drunk, tell me i'm pretty Tell me you want me by your side Make me fall apart Try as hard as you can To let the pieces fall in your hand And i'll kiss you tonight And you tell me that i look sad And you tell me that i look sad And it's okay if yo...