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She put bullet through a Bible and thought it would empower her, but she felt nothing and that’s all she needed, to finally feel nothing. She stopped by my house the next morning and said “I’m sorry but I still don’t feel like this life is worth living, you di...

I've spent my life trying to come to terms With the selfish fact that I don't love you back I'll use my life to find peace and hope And the weathering fall is just a bump in the road I'll let the telephone ring I'm too busy cleaning up the block I'll cl...

I... I feel like a mouth facilitating the language constructed by the mind of depression A vocal confirmation that I have diluted my ambition to accommodate my aggression Watered down prayer requests to a sky painted blue, like the ocean of my heart Settl...

I wanted us to be model citizens so no one would ask us about our sins. But there's an intoxicating thrill that comes with entering a home of love and finding skeletons in the closet And there's something about community that creates competition and someth...

I’m gonna chisel away at this rock until I get the shape that I want and then I’m gonna continue to chisel it, because that’s what I do when I find myself in a new relationship. Because I remember when this started out as mud mixed with water that turned to cl...

I will stay calm and collected but just for a moment I have forsaken my motions and now feel broken Caught in a radical state feeling progressive in a way But emptied of all structure I feel like my life has been stripped away Sometimes when I close my eye...

Television dials completely out of style, and no one's too sure if they work. Frayed wires hanging above the remains of hopeful mice Who took a roll of the dice And tried to nest on top of that box that once projected murmurs of wars. Books stacked on book...

Dear everyone, we are a broken people. But, it's okay, at least we have each other. And all I ask is that we can love one another, In a society of social adaptation to no end. We can't pretend to fall silent in this bend. Enduring injustice and lack of su...

We'll make loneliness into love when we're bored And find the right emotional principle to cut like a sword Over the words of a past me whispering Love was the destination but we would settle for some sympathy Turning myself into my own lord and then findi...

I don't go outside as much as I used to I'm not home, just in my house forgetting myself or at least trying to But not forgiving until come back out I have a light on in my room During the day I hardly notice it But at night it keeps me from falling aslee...

It was problematic at best to perceive existence with a myopic lens I embedded into myself My lack of gestures limited the effectiveness of my delivery and all she begged for was deliverance Just soft, eloquent passages that provided closure. Not answers, ju...

She likes her rock and roll To be broke and famous With the broken and nameless To take all their time She likes her rock and roll to be loud and honest Proud and androgynous, not searching for context She likes her rock and roll to teach her about hers...

It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side. That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight. Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor sickened by the entity I had absorbed, no more. I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor endure a...

There is nothing here for me, But I'm here for you, So I will never leave. And I'm starting to believe, Every time you said you loved me, You were just talking in your sleep. And I said I would die for you But that was before I knew That it's all you...

This is what I said to myself in a deep dream. There’s a relief that belief is all inside of me and not trying to sleep, but it will bleed a brief shred of grief followed by a chase to break free. As I chase this crippling desire to understand the f...

I spent too much time erasing, not enough time changing Blurring the lines between sick and selfish Hoping I can grab on for just a second But I've learned to take what I can get And use the parts that makes sense And relent only when I meet my own death...

There's enough people that we hate that I think we should build a temple I guess I'll never relate to the people that I'm supposed to resemble. There's an empty cofifn at a wake carved with the words "Death to all rebels." A purgatory's an empty gate whe...

I tried looking into her eyes to make sense of my own life, But found senseless realisations, I was reckless and she was justification; A vacation from the monotony I lived in. And avoiding risk felt nice until I realized, I was avoiding purpose. And i...

(Wait for the sunset so you can see that you shine too. Darkness waits in secret hoping your light shines through) She told me about you and she couldn't help but cry. I may not be a part of your family, but I can't help myself sometimes. I love her so mu...

Walking down aisles of vintage stores and peacefully window shopping Stalking the nightmare that cuts your core and keeps you sobbing He could be anywhere around you and you just don't know it The person who ended your greatest joy and truest friendship It...

September 2012, Cameron Smith, Hotel Books, I believe that intelligence is relative but wisdom is universal, I believe that life is not a performance and no-one gets a rehearsal, I accept that nature is our environment and deserves to be well kept, But...

I know we haven't talked in a while I know I ignored your calls But I miss you tonight The Bible used to know my name With heaven's weeping holy tears Love that tastes like sweet champagne I'm chasing after hollow fears I've been staring at walls and...

Sometimes even tolerance is void of compassion So I'll ask if we can somehow ration some fashion room for fast action Removal of passion from the last stand we took against [?] stance Move past the future of perfection with conviction A numbness of remissi...

There's a solution to every problem I want us together and I love you And I don't want you to leave because we're here together We're not gonna make it out alive without each other Please don't go Stay I chased away a prophecy cause there's a side of me...

What's the point? Can your so called honesty predict revelations? This trigonometry repeals all my innovation. The angles set had no equation. A triangle makes sense, but our parallel lines never intersected. Our love was a geometric oddity at best, Some...

I would rather live in pain than live in vain and in this way I don't know if anything will change, but at least I know who I am in this game that we play. Even though sometimes I don't know if it's even worth trying to get things to stay, but I've spent so l...

I tried to capture my emotions on paper and was told I was misdirected, but maybe my mindset has just been infected by this pain-infested re-appropriation of my familiarity with negligence. Part of my heart followed me when I finally moved out, but I still fe...

I'm not proud of the things I've done But I'm proud of the person that I can become 'Cause somewhere between day one and now I tried to chase a popular sound I tried to chase a comfort for those around But when the show ends We're sleeping on hardwood be...

I let intentions hold more power than actions and that's why I fall asleep alone I sit here idly finding timely spacing and phrasing while writing and scribbling words of watered down angst and heartbreak while my spirit runs wildly How I envy my free sp...

There was an ache in the back of my head when I sat down at the table And realized the silence from last night would bleed into the morning Fading into a familiar story With every new ache in my body I remember when I promised myself I would be in love by t...

I think I'm almost happy here But I will never regret venturing despite fear Because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive So if this is reality, then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died Cause sometimes I feel like noth...

I sat down with her and she told me her story. I told her I lover her and I just wanted to support her through her recovery. Through conversations, I listened, and I feel like this is the best way to interpret what she told me. The devil found clever way...

I'm afraid to ask for solutions Because I have to admit that I have none Living in this mind of pollution Hoping this soul dries up in the sun [?] The high road seems like [?] Living in this lie of conviction Because I want to find some purpose When y...

Forever is not relative, so tell me again if you've ever lied to me. Life gathers sorrows, and sorrows gather in my head and no one can die in vain, when no one is ever dead. And all that's been revealed is all I can know And all I can really do is learn t...

They say it's hard to fall in love, Maybe they never learned how to patiently wait. They say it's always dark before the dawn but you walked away before the dawn could break. So who's really right in the end? When you tore down th walls but I'm the one...

Watching your muscles ache from the stress in your back Waiting for bones to break from the weight of what you lack. I would spend all my time helping you find truth, And it really cuts like a knife knowing I can't save you. Because saying goodbye hurts th...

My life has become a game of building a ladder to climb over the wall that you built. I can see the colors running down your face and I still can’t help but feel. It’s hard enough knowing that you cry but it’s even harder knowing that I don’t have to...

Scream hallelujah until you cough up blood Cause the devil came for our minds but left with our love so I looked into myself for something I knew nothing about found no solutions but found a lot of doubt and slowly found out my heart was a trap door waiti...

I embedded my home into another ones ambitions. The battle of mind and heart, a terrible mix up. We foolishly tricked ourselves into believing, that there was some sort of in dignity in giving up. Selfishness was not hesitant to plant that white cross six fee...

I think I’m losing you, but I will never regret choosing you Because I am in love, and for now that will be enough And the ones around me convince me that I was the only person who was dumb enough to believe that you and I had hope. But now I know even aft...

The pain of our broken bones Holds no candle to the pain of our broken homes The bothersome cold and fatherless homes Who is to blame but our own When mothers overseas See pain that we don’t know And they pray their offspring have no double X chromosome...

I chose to believe every word I was fed And I thought the coals on my back were a product Of the lack you left when you stepped back And racked your brain for a reason to stay, But you could not seem to formulate any such thought in your head. So you lef...

The minute that this love ends, You can write down my time of death, Non contingent upon who I am, All that matters is who he is. Living in a world where they say there's nothing to see, And I believed them, But god my spirit's willing but the flesh is...

2 a.m. stopping to fill up the tank on the way back from a late night show. As I exited my car, I noticed something. Something familiar, but I couldn't quite place it. For I had not been acquainted with it for quite some time. After a few deep breaths, the f...

Sometimes I feel like some sort of gold being. I’m some sort of metal that only has purpose when someone needs something. And people wouldn’t chase after me if it wasn’t for greed, if it wasn’t for the purchasing of some sort of peace. And my hopes and d...

I wish I never heard the things you said before you said what you meant You fell apart with a broken heart, breaking another won't make it mend If you had to hide your scars to love him, maybe he didn't love you back Maybe we won't find ourselves if we only...

It’s a dream, you and her in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. What if there was truth to the statement that first came love, then came marriage? But it’s not that way. That’s not the song we sing; Sex without a condom is the new engagement ring. And the pain of ring...

As the broken sleep, Death forgot to thank me when I set her free. Come empty and you won't need anything, Believe in your own blood until your heart stops beating, And then you too will be set free. Tear down your towers and build bridges, Your god is a...

The first time I met Sarah she said that if I wanted to ever be an artist some day, I would have to dig deep inside myself and create something of expression. And I remember telling her I already sold ten thousand records and felt like I had put in enough time...

Like a hunter in the woods looking for something Without a plan you can't get anything And imperfection drove me to see nothing And that's why I'm not breathing And imperfection makes more sense when put in the context of human existence And I can say I p...

I was standing on the corner between main street and pine, And I thought I saw your ghost, but it was really just mine So let me crawl into your skin for a minute, I promise I'll leave, when I learn what love is I never mean't to be the problem, but I als...

There is a lesson to learn when someone can crash and burn. Are we just waiting for our turn? Is there any concern? We force-fed our own minds with something that was never mine. We do this every time, we do this every time. It takes two to make a rela...

Every church has a steeple And their own form of suicide And I'd like to think if I lived through the Bible Soon after, I would have probably died But I have no weapons, just a lot of ammunition And the muddy waters I'm stepping in Until you showed me m...

Chapter 3: Part One Separation is normal When asked why people break up, there is not one simple answer A sense of self-knowledge and intentional awareness is a catalyst between the communication of two partners hoping to achieve emotional intimacy But it...

There's clouds and sunshine drawn out on a piece of printer paper And we're gonna thank her cause this picture is worthy of the front of the refrigerator A picture of a house with a door, a window and a chimney With five stick figures labeled mommy, daddy,...

We're told that we're all special at a very young age, but maybe we're not I know I believed every television commercial until my work ethic rots Internet prepared for a world full of fantasy where fear of adversity eliminated diversity And I need an audien...

I know I can't take anything with me But I hope I can hold onto my memories There are shapes in the patterns on the wall I don't see people any more at all My biggest weakness has become focussing on my weaknesses Wisdom is a door with a key that's been...

She wondered what life would be like if she was born at a different time A time before him, or a time after him "What a gift it is to be alive at the same time," she thought She would never say these words to him for she knew they would only be received as...

I have these voices in my brain And I created them and I hate them But I ask them to stay 'Cause I have this fixation on death This fixation on change This fixation on three years I grew out of pain This fixation on sleep This fixation on you and on me...