Flatsound

"you called me just now i want to know what your dream was about and if i was made a man you looked at me and said i’m not ready for bed and if we could kill ourselves? there were 40 other people in the room no no no i thought about it and you were the...

tonight will be like last night if it wasn’t we wouldn’t be here you said - i’d rather be dead than live with regret / then you killed me you left me a note that said i wish we had just gone to bed instead we broke the rules all that i have left are t...

"i’ve seen you in that same dress at least one billion times i can’t feel my head i also saw how often you say goodbye" 

you came here on a plane, through the clouds and over water, just to make sure we were close. when did clothes become so uncomfortable? so we'll take them off, and i'll let go of everything that i had lost in a single night. i still dream of a home where we...

Tonight I walked through a field that used to scare me More than I scared myself And thought of the last time that I felt hopeless Sixteen in my fathers car wondering how An artificial light could make me feel so empty And if it looked as dull pourin...

i wrote you a quick song to say i know you're hurt but that's okay because everyone gets hurt and everyone gets down don't this world just throw you around because i know how you get and it scares me more than i'd like to admit 

I was pulled out of bed by a single thread It tugged me to death by my clothing And i was lead to a door i’d never seen before With an old gentle glow of it’s opening I was a child pressed against your flower dress I clung to it like i did before i lost y...

I'll sit and pretend I know someone at an intimate depth it only makes me feel like shit in the end because you're only as good as the people you consider your friends so watch an aching past surface, and now i'm half certain that everyone who associates...

As promised, here’s a song about the following: Pizza James and the giant peach Lights, bookshelves, flowers Right angle triangles Throwing oranges Nikkis spine surgery Chelsies cat So, i'll try my hardest It goes like this I woke up this morning an...

you said that you wanted everything we saw in the movies we saw on the tv screen but i can't get out of bed so tell me why life is so misleading and why i feel like i'm bleeding through a hole in my head you said that you wanted everything we...

So we move a little slower now Because we feel it in our hearts And i promise to keep my fingers crossed Until the pain tears them apart But escaped were the words so gray Like a cloud crowded sky And i can’t stop the rainy day If its pouring from your...

You can't ever look past the way that you yourself felt Talk to yourself, well, that's the meaning of self help And don't beat yourself up in the pursuit of self happiness Because half the battle's asking passionately just what "happy" is Take some time o...

Finn, why are you fighting with your friend? Jake, you know this can't be the end Romance or action, does not matter Hurting your friends will make you sad Guys, you know you're much more than this You too, please stop or you'll undo All that you've bee...

You said Things would stay the same Well, have they? Because it's not that hard to describe yourself You're a broken down shell of someone else that I That I used to know And you move every winter I know you're scared but you'll never get better If y...

see myself in a screen wasting days, counting weeks getting more familiar with how you speak while you're away from me but i don't want to say goodbye because it's safer when i'm by your side i want to be near you like i'm meant to but hey i think it...

I want to know where you’re going On the way to the coffee shop When your body drops, there’s nothing left I was told you were different I was told you were done with this I know old habits die hard but this is ridiculous You stood there so scared you co...

"summer time was not a lie but just a feeling that we got and i know you feel alone, too but this heat is not for us i know i wanted to go into the valley where it snows but i realized, this place is too cold to live my life im sorry, sorry i couldn't...

i used to take the bus to the ocean to the spot you said to meet i walked past everyone i didn't want to see and with the sun at its departure and your body close to me every word was spoken nervously i know you never really liked people i didn't mean t...

Whats the matter little babe? Do you miss your mothers face? She had gone and changed her name But that doesn’t mean a thing Stay strong, i too have felt betrayed I saw her hiding drinks Under baths and kitchen sinks She won't stop until she thinks she...

Forty seven pictures in a text To remind me of the ones inside my head A simple plan for complicated friends I promise that I'll be fine in the end But I think it would destroy you Wouldn't it? I haven't stopped thinking of what you said You don't know...

We sat inside your car Down the street is where you parked And that is where we talked About what kind of guy I am I thought you were being distant Because you needed distance I'll drape these words across my chest Everything is my fault And I did no...

it’s not that I don’t have words to say I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them I’d rather keep it secret until we reach it so I’ll rest my head on the glory of this sorrow I know its hard to swallow, but tomorrow we’ll start new and I remember...

i just want to be equals, be equals, be equals without all the feeble attempts to hurt you because that’s not what i want but if you needed some space you should have told me the only thing you told was butterflies and hold me when it’s cold to anyone wh...

i trust that everything that happened to us happened so we'd improve everything is proof everything you do but you've got the softest arms i have ever known the softest arms that i could hold or that could hold me travel far away where the ne...

I used to walk from school to meet you At the coffee shop and drink two Cups of joe, then bum a smoke off anyone And I'd play for you some songs I wrote Most were about being alone And how sad I got, my troubled thoughts, and giving up Before I knew what...

Say I came back today Would I have a spot in your heart? And say I showed up at your door Claiming that I loved you more Than I ever had before I 'fore I, 'fore I, 'fore I messed up 'fore I, 'fore I, 'fore I, 'fore I If I, If I could go back in time W...

"every day reminds me that i still exist but don't deserve to be here for what i did maybe things were never supposed to be this good if that's the case i'm grateful for who you were because who you were was real i've adapted to this normal pace and fou...

When i think about it i can just feel it like, right here, at the tip of my head You’ll be alright once you take the pills Yeah you’ll be just fine once you’re not yourself And i’m so offended that i don’t know what to say I’m poppin’ in your tape, oh nic...

is it you who calls the shots of what you want does it hurt when he sees you like his eyes are made of fire he's not allowed to be near you so why are you the one who hides i don't have to pretend that these are your friends how could you live on a f...

it never felt this hard to be inside of your car. i want to go out far, to anywhere you want. but, is ferris bueller on? because i could really use some distraction from everything. is ferris bueller on? because i could really use some distraction, or a day of...

will you write another sad sad song while sitting up at night when you can't sleep i know it's obnoxious and it's useless to fight a war you're losing between what could and shouldn't be this might be your only chance to find out where your paths will...

i make my way through a crowded mall just to meet you when you called well this is it, it’s over now, you don’t have to wait or pretend that he’s just your friend today i played my genesis and fed my cats…and that’s it then i sighed and realized that th...

I always liked how your hands looked And not just in comparison to mine They were an artists hands Calloused from building walls and Skin covered in clay that cracked as it dried You see, i have two thoughts Before touching someones hands Are they soft?...

I used to sit up in bed and pray that you would stop or at least get caught because it wasn't my sake it was all of the mistakes that you made and couldn't take back now i miss you a lot but every time you call i don't want to talk at all 

So this is the first time that i've been outside all day, feel really sick lately but I just told myself I was gonna force myself to do it anyway. this last week has been very very strange, feels like a lot of things just changing and I'm trying to convince my...

Helen, oh Helen I just wanted to give you give you your coat back, you left it at my house yeah I’ve been eating, yeah I’ve shaved my head I do it to clear my thoughts when i’m sad but hey, what are you doing tomorrow? I think we should hang out and talk...

Every day, I think about you And why you had to turn into My enemy, when all I need's my friend But the one who used to spend the night And fall asleep before I Ever had a chance to tell you how How I felt Every morning when I wake up I feel the spac...

I woke up in the morning trying to figure out what was coming Because a dream like this one don't come around just for nothing It's something. How do you tell your friends you're scared to die? Spread your wings at the party, did that empty cup make you cou...

you said i can't be here anymore i can't be around all these people who all my life have tried to change me if they could rearrange these thoughts that drive me crazy and i can't hide who i am it's just so hard to be around everyone when they're so nar...

I don't remember you You took me by surprise when I met you Well, who was that? What did we have Before we got to be so busy? I don't remember this Being so alone I've gotten used to it So if I hold you back It's cause you move so fast And the lines...

"baby please, it's the way you speak forming words so easily and i think of the way you think it keeps me from falling asleep in that grave i call a bed until you called me up and said "i haven't stopped crying my father's been drinking i need a place...

i fell asleep with the television on i missed all of your phone calls and slept through the alarm am i late? am i too late to see you? are you mad i didn't get to meet you? with a phone in your pocket and holes in your shoes you went to monterey w...

i went to class, you didn't show up i thought we said that we'd keep in touch walk through town, disassembled on a crutch just like you did when you were in love i left the house and i didn't miss much you opened your mouth and i lost my trust yeah i le...

since you’ve been gone i’ve stayed up until dawn just sitting and growing a beard but i’ll shave it off and start again so i’ll look the same as when you left i got a new phone it came with old numbers but i really wish it hadn’t because i’m trying...

i used to go to sleep before the sun came up but lately i've been thinking about us and it's just hard, it's just hard, it's just been difficult to be out on your own with no goals laid out in front of you something tells me that i was happier when you to...

There was a man who lived alone He'd sit and think, "Will I find anyone?" He said please, please I'll do anything, anything There was a boy who didn't know What he would be when he was old He said please, please I'll do anything Please, please I'll b...

Lately I'm feeling down I'm not in the mood to stick around And I know you said this would hurt This is just making it worse But I'll get over whatever this is Can you, can you hold on one second? Fuck 

mother - i'm calling for you mother you've been gone for too long, why'd you go? is this what you think it means to be responsible? hospital - you stayed in the hospital trying to convince the nurse to give you sedatives you said, "i'll give anything to m...

we drove with the radio on it talked about god, until you told it to stop and the flick of a switch said you can’t listen to this it fills you with the thought that you’re afraid to exist but i, i’m feeling holy tonight just watch as my blood is turned i...

i lie in my bed, with the things i thought that we said and try to pretend that everything was dead but you wanted to be in anyone else's life, right? and i will forget i'm anyone else's type, right? i'm nervous and yeah, i've been talking to someone els...

I’m not comfortable on my own, or when you’re leaving So i’ll follow you wherever you go And i know this isn’t normal, i’m walking back and forth between The window and the sunlight, trying to figure out what it means To be trusted, to be normal, to be lif...

I'll start it off by saying I'm not one for the complaining You wouldn't know it from my writing You wouldn't know it from my songs But I am different, I am free I am what you need But oh my god, I miss you more than I thought was possible I understood...

there was an old women who said her goodbyes by gathering everyone she knew and telling them her lies “i wasn’t faithful to my husband, i lied to my friends but in the end i was thinking about you” when my mom had my brother she was no older than me so w...

well if it seems stupid you know that you’re on your way to something much better forgetting the moments that i’d say i need you, i can feel it in my heart and i know that i hate change but lately its me doing the changing if i could get back to where i...

where did you go, and what did you do, with all that time you were too scared to move? what is it like to be by yourself for three and half years. for roughly three and a half years. if we could just pretend that i went to college, and that's why you haven't...

I can always pick up books in the search of what I need but that doesn’t help me any if you’re impossible to read so if you love me, if you love me come clean these monsters in my closet are watching over me the days are getting shorter and...

Days dedicated to the thought of being through And I just want to lay in bed with you And admit that I'm so tired of everything I do But with you, but with you It was new And I can't stop thinking of the moon Or the nights I saw your breath in the room...

Remember when you promised That you would never leave me That your heart would never stop shining the light That kept me warm during the winter And whole when it was summer And holds me like no other light before Like the petals of a flower Taking chanc...

eight minutes of rendered sound, slow moving textures, and thoughtful tones. taken from old flatsound recordings, these sounds represent a time of healing, a time spent waiting for something i truly believe is worth it. it’s the realization that even my wordle...

"when you were a child on the farm you saw him pin her by the weight of his arms so she left in the night when you were in bed and took your trust when she left you're already hurt im scared that if you put your trust in me i'll make it worse i'll hurt...

phone in my pocket, what a wonderful day thinking of something that I should say but I can't hold you responsible anymore I don't know what I'm thinking I'm lost now in the thrill of it but I'm not giving up until I am free because that's where I'm suppo...

you’re by yourself so you buy yourself another pack of smokes for the long drive home and it’s cold out and your whole mouth is filled with the words you think keep you warm and you said “kurtis, hunter, hemingway please stop making sense” please d...

it's cold and lately i've been feeling tired of everyone i know and i'm positive that's it obvious that every time i'm out i want to go home and every time i'm home i feel so alone i can't expect to sit and wait around to die for the rest of my life...

You're on the phone With someone who doesn't know About your soul and how it Can't be held by flesh and bone And I guess that's fine I would never want you to Stop your life But when I saw you both With your shoulders touching Sitting so close I kne...

Most folks think that I'm not real 'Cause I'm half girl and I'm half seal I'm a little seal girl livin' in the real world And it's so hard to get by 'Cause seals can't even cry But in this endless, boundless sea Is there no one who looks like me I know...

sunshine came through every corner, peeking through the shades it doesn’t have to fade, no nothing has to change so i can go to sleep, finally and i, i know nothing about the past all i know is that it’s passed so i can’t blame you for that and you, you...

the night time painted circles on your eyes the ones that scream that nothing is alright and you promised me we'd get some sleep if you came inside but you're too scared to fall asleep tonight no i'm not here to judge what i think love is for i've mad...

macie, macie - put your lightest foot in front of you with your hand on my belt i did what you were gonna do and this is the night i realize i'm broken it makes me feel good, makes me feel pretty so spit in my mouth and me baby take a step outside, put y...

last night you had that dream again, the one where you try and run from your fears but you can’t because you’re wearing fabulous stilettos. if i were the boss of you i’d make you get out of my head for good, but i’m not so when this ship sinks i’ll have the co...

tonight i walked through a field that used to scare me more than i scared myself and thought of the last time that i felt hopeless sixteen in my fathers car wondering how an artificial light could make me feel so empty and if it looked as dull pourin...

You said life is beautiful Beautiful If you come outside I promise you'll be fine I've seen you go into that same hole Too many times I'm just so scared to die Scared to die Before my mind is cleared Of all this awful fear I've seen this old train ma...

You said, "Take the violin that you hang on your wall, Stick it under your bed before it crumbles and falls, Just don't open your eyes before counting to ten" I can hardly remember just the smell of your hands As they danced on my body, running over my po...

did you escape from the feelings that you wanted to replace, with anything you thought could fill the space? i hope you found the quietness you want, because nothing good comes from being gone. so keep your eyes on anything, as long as it makes you happy. do y...

She bent down and tied your shoes With your favorite double-knotted loop As she knelt down by the side of the road And you told me, we could make this work Well, is this what you wanted, for me to admit that this fucking hurts? And is this actually happe...

you stand so still- you stand so still like the pillar- the pillar you stand behind and i have no limbs, i’m just a head in your lap i can’t believe i let it get this bad because all i want to do is play Sega and touch my girlfriend in her old Lumin...

tiny ghost, please don’t haunt me. this is bullshit. i used to sit in the dark of your bedroom. smoke weed with me and laugh. take me back to before i got bad. 

it’s been exactly one year since i wrote that first poem about you. i sat in bed and started thinking about what happened at sandy hook, and how fragile life is, and how much i wanted you in mine. when you read it you said you teared up and couldn’t believe wh...

I lose control of my heart I can’t keep up without losing my breath it’s been this way from the start, I need rest I'll go to sleep at a decent time when I find something worth waking up for the days are long when I keep checking my phone to see y...

there are people who i trust and there are people who trust me and i don't know why they're choosing to confide in someone who will talk about anything there are people who i miss there are people miss me and i don't know why they're investing all their time...

last night i had another one of those dreams, the ones where you constantly wake up only to realize you're still dreaming. i saw spiders in my sheets - the fear had woken me up. i jumped out of bed and noticed the spiders were still there biting at my feet - t...

ever since you were born you were cold as the snow you were so scared to melt you avoided the warmth that your family had gave in the same flowing breath that they said I love you to death do you live for the summer or spring? because you don't feel li...

You can't stand in my doorway for long It's eleven o'clock, he's expecting you home I'll walk you up the hill to your car Because you parked in the dark in our favorite spot And I'll collapse to my knees and beg you "Please, honey bee" And said no, don'...

I heard your footsteps on my wooden floor It was on that bed that we ignored the TV we used for light Your fingertips were so secure When you spoke I felt your words burning through my chest Cause happiness is close I can feel it in my bones Like inhalin...

you came back to a place where nothing feels the same now that we both made a mistake but honey you came back you came back from everything we wanted to end but everything you wanted you could find in someone else that isn't quite as lost or broken a...

it's turning on the tv when we were fourteen you said, "my moms asleep, we won't get caught. what do you want to watch?" and i could hear the traffic that i know you're ignoring but i let it into my life to thicken to air i breathe it was at the bus stop...

the kitchen light is on, i can hear anita talk she’s on the phone with someone you love you said she won’t come in, press your nose against the pen and breathe until you’re numb but i don’t know where i am, i woke up in a photograph it goes on and on and...

hi - i know i promised that we'd talk more it's just i - i'm surprised you even want to talk at all well you can refer to me as the one who still calls nervously because i'm so scared that you still think i'm the one who gave up when i wasn't the on...

take the length that we’d traveled and compare it to the length we haven’t traveled yet i took my life out of context and moved it to the front of a cameras lens so i could see things more clearly than i did and the picture was astounding but when i did,...

it wasn’t a mistake - so please dont think it was i know because i didn’t have a lot to drink i just needed a bit for confidence no, they wont find out no one cares enough about it to run their mouths we can go upstairs for tea i’d offer you coffee but...

It's time to open your eyes A new day's arrived where you could be mine Instead, you live inside my head That is where you rest That is where you rest And these old clothes are not who you were So you cut your hair to let us know Just how far you'd go...

hi, my name is none of your concern just listen and judge me for what you think i’m worth and you said i like the way your fingers play the chords i like the way you make me feel at home i heard you’re at it again i just called to say i never left and good lu...

you can’t be by yourself you can’t be by yourself they kept you in the dark in a room with nothing sharp until you were well you told me that you were so scared of what they know but love isn’t afraid love is using your first name in the poems that I...

my only problem lately is i've got too much time so all i'm left with is that what's on my mind and that's not gonna work because i left out everyone yeah i left out everyone and all i have at the end of the day is that what's on my mind i've got too...

i wake up and roll out of my bed with the thoughts i can't forget and the memory of when i was ambitious now if i were any less alive i'd be the ghost who's floating by and i'm tired of living in a tomb the four walls of my room and the things i own a...

Breaking my soul, are you original? You think i haven't felt this way before? The only difference is you used your hands And she used her mouth I know he is stronger than me But he's never made you feel like this Can we forget what we said before I sai...

when the days are long and it feels so easy to fall apart do you fall apart or will you say that everything's fine for the rest of you life in the dark everything is soft grab your clothes take them off and run the bath with the thought,...

Make believe can you make believe that I stuck around to see falling leaves and I didn't give up so easily cause it's cold outside it's like the time when you walked downtown to save a life we wlaked downtown to save our lives cause it's cold outside...

well i’m huntin’ down the rabbit holes i saw out by the lake you told me they grow farther from the water when it rains i met a man who promised everyone that he had changed but there he was by the river with a rock attached to his waist if it rains the cr...

bubble boy, an insignificant cell on a strangers body. a nobody, with no purpose, but i’ll still find a way to draw parallels to who looks better with their shirt off. now it feels like the world is spinning too quickly and sometimes i just can’t fucking belie...

we’re fighting again we’re fighting again, more than usual try and pretend that this is normal but it isn’t right, the damage that we do to your body all those scratches on your little arms are spelling “i’m sorry about being me. a skinny less perfect opr...

i'm sorry for the time you spent waiting for something that i knew i couldn't do watch me bury my secrets in a hole designed for me to fall into i don't remember where we are but i don't think it's very far build a house and pick your favorite col...

here i am, just like i promised i'll be here waiting when your plane lands i heard you flew here on an angel you're so perfect, no ones as perfect as you and you have the face of an angel when i break it's special when i break it's for you. 

I am doing just fine, thank you I know how much you like to keep in touch so you can talk about it and you said, who was that, who were you talking to? is that the reason you're too scared to go downtown? and talk about it. she said it's my own body, I...

Well i’m not sure if you’re angry But i’m not gonna stick around to find out Because this is not worth the time And the hours on the bus i’d write about you Were wasted words We can patch things up for another week But there’s no point if everything is m...

you used to come up for air through a sea of other people, just hoping they don’t notice that you are leaving again. you’re leaving again. and you can’t believe it’s true, there are people like you – with the same hearts, and the same marks on our bodies. did...

it all started with closed eyes and a feeling in my gut telling me i need to keep them shut the whole time because they opened even for a second and i saw your lips they’d suck me in like black holes when they bend light and it was then i realized yo...

a house, a home, a window you were here before the floorboards broke in on themselves like black holes are the promises you keep just for people that you want because you can't read any of our old conversations but i read them so often it's like we stil...

A house, a home, a window You were here before the floorboards Broke in on themselves like black holes Are the promises you keep Just for people that you want? Because you can't read any of our old conversations But I read them so often, it's like we st...

there are reasons that i can't stay i counted them all myself but i will always keep awake searching for how it felt because all i want is to find myself in anyone and i wonder if it'll ever come as easy as us giving up if this could stop i don't thin...

you can love again, despite the things you said about caring too much for a person you thought was the most important part of your life. but, that’s what you get for opening a closed door in hopes they’ll find love on the inside. i’m a house with no windows, y...

You said you were done, well how done? Because you wrote: "Don't forget" On your arm when you were drunk And I got mad at the fact That you had to remind yourself at all I got mad when I shouldn't have It's just that I got so scared That you had already...

We used to talk in the summer Before we had things to do And in the winter we would talk before school And I was feeling impeccable Toward everything in my life It's Tuesday 3 AM and you write "I wanted to die" You're a mess in public But I still thin...

"there you are, no there you are i thought i saw you at the park but i am not allowed to come you, to come to you no matter how much i want to tell you i'm sorry for making this, for making this the hardest thing you ever did but i wasn't alone you...