Bone Awl

(lyrics adapted from the lettersof antonin artaud to jacques riviere) "I suffer from a fearful mental disease my thoughts abandon me at every stage thus whenever I am able to grasp a form however imperfect I hold on to it there is one single thing wh...

What bullet am I? What gun I occupy? When the day I am fired? 

On the edge of the woods There was laughter which verged on howling As they made it to the edge They were attacked by black beasts The only thing that they remember Was the sight of dog fangs reflecting light from the fire 

Black kali bride would drink my blood and in transparent red smile lick her lips Would wear my head on a necklace and dance with shivan arms The irrational thought patterns of a demon an insatiable lust I would dance in her bloodlust trance ki...

Call into the fields Cry in fear Lightning wings on a bird Blame yourself Cry in fear Lightning Black wings Cry into the fields Call in fear Black wings lighting up Break into the fields calling up Beg black wings to shed this fear 

Death rolling in the dust Wild dogs, in the dirt Far off sounds Men in wildfire Causing fire, bloody fire Water waves, now pulling back The unknown's goodbye Waves rolling in the dust Crumbling, the land's edge The war is here Between two colorless c...

What great eyes you have The better to see you with But better eyes still Would see the face of truth And better eyes still Might see beyond And better still Might find a way to heal I hang my heavy head Flawed, not good enough Full of flawed eyes...

I have waited far too long for this sun to dawn no chloroform will be used you must be witness of the coming ice age in my eyes I find you asleep-awaken you will never be free again rope in mouth bound feet and arms burn I can die cnontent you...

so the skin hangs on bone pulled by inevitable fate soldier chokes on air of death exhaling the next epidemic so the sheets stain with blood desecrated by this sacred fluid the soldier's wounds weep in red dripping angst of a wartorn man so the eyes...

Behind it you sit faceless alone and pointless liar false will has made you my enemy Dishonor chases to falsity Behind it you sit faceless alone and pointless liar false will has made you my enemy and hidden you cannot remain charge of cowardice Beyon...

inside these bricks of cold grey granite, are the powdered screams of lost hope and life, soot coats its walls black resin of human death its thick walls echoe, sceams of genocide the eternal satanic flame, changes flesh into dust belching forth bla...

suddenly awake from resting into the bones of dead animals one might think that it was time to move on back to the mountains something started is that spark which could catch into the golden fire a fire which for now melts hair into archaic symb...

cornered slave is kicked kicked in the mouth turned over front is whipped front is split the flesh comes alive is pulsating rubber eventually he started smiling as the cracks rang out and blood pooled life was made an apparent lie and only becam...

in years, in these bloody days that weights fall from a leaden sky the scales are tilt the plates are filled with feasts of suffering there is enough ice to go around there will be enough ice for every last speckled man rest assured you will fre...

long drawn years - seclusion safeguard of mediocrity - solitude is to the genius - stern friend it is the obscure shelter where our eagle wings moult in one farther than suns my cool sweet grave culture denied 

take a shovel today is a day of burial down into the covering lets gather six feet will not do this time deeper into the earth we must dig take a shovel to the dirt through roots and sticks let's make this quick bury him forever leave the ground u...

Death creeps in the stars Is that glint of light In blood's wet reflection Suffocating and horrible Can this enlightenment be When every instance Of miraculous innocence Is taken from you When this leaves That old star hopper Nears the sun 

He has my mind Sees it slide Knows what's mine What wounds his pride What's mine he'll crush In jealousy Break my mind Take from me What he won't have Is my consent My golden word His fulfillment The light is mine Illuminated eye A thorn in god's...

I know One day For certain The clouds will part And I will be sucked into the sky Out there In space My body will cave in My mind will collapse 

frightening clouds might take my body leave it convulsing a few times over or cover my mouth with my own had madness is a deep sea I've waded in no too deep at its bottom I'll end up with absinthe spoon and sugar cubes clouds are only illusions of th...

blood dried black in the river of himself bone gone black his throat deeply slit life had to be paid for with life grauballe man with you lay black oxen and pigs they are your equal life had to be paid for with life swamped purgatory hold the...

lying there is a dead hawk on the side of the road, wing up being propped by a bone Broken, Pointing up back to the sky. Its feathers more gold than anything around Could you not tell? Nature has no place here We claw at everything desperately cho...

Iron burns the flesh the sting of red hot shelss in unfelt pain, the hammer falls back A lock, secure a click, assured This inescapable gaze, holds and drops enemies lifeless myself, I must take life two bullets are left, two lives will be lost Iron bu...

The bickering has stopped The children Have been put to sleep Only one is left awake Important tasks are done in silence Nothing is moving around the perimeter There are heads of silence that have a quiet hum of lobotomy But this, this is the si...

Screaming the body the body roars and is heard miles off Immediately all space is occupied with unbearable presence In a moment it is decided we are to be no more 

Exactly how You would not imagine in silence Amongst the earth's entirety It was finished while everyone was there yet no one saw 

The crawling clown The whistle laugh The voice that Commands none I decree that You are horribly free Talk as loud as you like But hear only Your own voice 

In every alone there is all one needs beginnings that beg to begin in every alone is every end which send most into life-long dellusions that does not mean that all people are capable of self 

I feel tension I feel tension I feel them pulling away from me I am awakened by noises in the night noises from myself My eyes pull from my head to escape to slither in the grass My teeth pull from my mouth to escape to sink in...

I have never met him he has never came to me touched my flesh spoken unto me pictures show his flesh his body eating limbs politely conversing the people he chooses to meet with seem inspired his words must be powerful if he ever comes to me wit...

through pacts and bonds broken a throne is held, a fist cast in stone, a crown cast in poison blood sick and sunken, the soul sleeps under armour inhuman is the warbeast impure, rust covers metal, male and skin one tyranny and hatred stake the oppose...

get stuck in a loop burn yourself burn yourself in effigy rotten weeds a feast for flames to eat meet yourself meet yourself in effigy retold again and again sacrifice it never ends watch the lines in your had break and change in eff...

Infinitely faceted flame Endlessly faceless flame Faceted, forever: flame Fiery & Forever: flame Timeless and always the same Nameless but we sing the name Burned those heroic Burned those in shame Cannot be explained Wrestling with light Alway...

It must be loud for everyone to hear it must be violent and emanating death It must be pure chokingly pure it must sing the body of its sacredness You must be naked as a child absolutely red covered in blood It must be recognizable it must show...

This is all death We have already died honorable deaths 

my life is on fire everything is burning around me my life is on fire living in a land of tar I wander with skeletons I talk to skulls of course my skin is gone there is no sign of relief we're slaves to the sun when it finally goes black my smil...

buried under snow our lives may slow it is strange the colors we turn the once found a man still alive sleeping in the snow when they woke him he begged, "leave me here." what you find is not yours touch it and it may spoil snow is silver a...

Let blood Paint the sink Let blood Remind us what we're made of Let blood Bring about the rosebud Let blood Wait 

Staring into the sun Can be temporarily blinding Scorched retinas Over expodes nerves Often times in cities Which expand Into natural growth Eagles and hawks May stumble upon a fence post Disgusted by the sight Of pigeons I can hear drums Outside t...

In the water Who becomes A dark syrup In the night The white rays From the moon Are split Fragmenting like shells And ripping water Like flesh From bullets They can reveal A human body 

slumped into shoulders a dark leather face from the long slumber in a grave of peat beard stained red sinews around neck of ritual killing iron age execution dark green casket eternalized from acid the black offering to worship the sun old lindo...

blood pool flows over pale light burns green lost far down below being alive is curse locks with no key dark face looms above silent air holds wet clock ticks mark pain tears, spit drain body away from god's moral coal lines dot skin evil test pur...

Wake, wake from sleep Lust, for streams of death Eager, to hold sword again War, magnetism of war Wait for the day, The day when horses die. And wait for the day, When men will burn on stakes. Until then sleep... 

Horses wear gasmasks There is war Church bells melted There is war Children make guns There is war Panzers roll over rubble There is war Nation as weapon There is war 

the plains crack with fire and death man kills man undeniable rule social order must be carved by the hand of hygenic war cast iron darkness hides light of moral war clouds sail in klaxon sounds blitz krieg wastelands of oblivion earthen pl...

What have I become? The Great growing angle? A distancing distance, Dancing away? Uncontrollable/ Unstoppable As black smoke Is in & off As anything with life Cursing its every cell I am becoming Tall I am becoming away, A great groaning a...

No one will have you As I've had No one will hold What my arms have No one will stand so straight So stiff, straight up No body will be rigid As my body has No one will wear Sorrow the same None loneliness love Like me Look upon me Stare upon me...

The Night is indifferent, its back forever turned on acts of violence a blinding visage The night cloaks evil A sense forgotten Nature so intimate shivers of betrayel space once empty is full of potential Beauty is the chase, Beauty is the streak o...

Night's Middle Lightless riddle Suddenly small Life so little Night's middle Lifeless brittle Now I'm Found In Night's Middle Day Could be No Further Away Thin Stuck between The light of life and night's dream Alone but somehow heard the...

limp hands reach from rubble mouths gape without breath buried in broken graves no crosses mark this graveyard instant mass grave no burial ceremony violent fall of humanity bodies twis hidden in debris eyes like stone breath of dust wastes of conqu...

I will take from the earth and make it my own String up the livestock like weighted brown stones Like watery sacks no offering to me No letting of blood no plates, no feasts So, I must take from the earth I must drain lakes leave the fish jumping...

On Black mountain I spread my wings casting shadows on the rest My voice is deafening on Black Mountain drowning the cries from those below I only hear the wide space of the universe seeing through skies As veils of time onto solid steadfast e...

Tiredness is next to man's marvelousness Next to each other One feels sick One has grown big Age comes naturally He has become Older again One has been bitten And looks back to see One Nothing Between His arm & those teeth You know nothing...

A steel cross driven into solid rock without it cracking A robed man bathes into solid shadows passing through them A call from above is heard unto hollow ears passing through them A tall flame burns into dark red fabric without it smoking 

It does not gain speed the speed is forever steady it passes across a division one side cannot know the other there might be the impression of screaming in the distance but you can never be sure if what you heard was real when it crosses the di...

The most fatal compromise of self The denial of instinct. The most fatal compromise of self The denial of truth. The only animal in man must be preserved Beast like is this call of primitive instinct An action which demands a reaction so the wolf hunts,...

I'm being carried in red velvet I can't tell that I'm bleeding anti-stigmata inflicted wounds from my body their power blooms just put me down get it off me welcome all hungry things of the night white velvet this great expanse white velvet these face...

unwanted substance one rejected plays a part in left hand path is dead body a sexual rite held at night with a charred partially cremated corpse near funeral pyre visualize blackkali with gruesome skirt ritual lover during death of orgasm 

I want to see blood on you Show me the diseases you have born Show me whats that Across your back Show me the protrusions that have bore into you Show me your face its deep rivets Show me where time has cracked your body I want to see what step...

To see death To smell death To want that To need it UP UP UPWARDS Rising up in The circle of birds To see flesh To want flesh To be flesh To need it In in inwards Inland running The mass in herds Skinhead Vulture Bloody head Inwards Cleaning t...

in a day away from now the night will not let go will hold us in a stolen victory smiling star-wide atrillion fireballed grin brushing off the moon like a chalky scab proceeds to celebrate a dream come true within the planet nothing is seen on...

A fire-colored diadem A flaming red diadem Resting in his crown Both eyes straight forward The metal wreath A sparkling shine Reflecting the light Around the room His robe of yellow Like the skin of fruit Cracked like leather Lines run through his f...

Words are, absolutely quiet It is the awful voice That speaks up Lightning is Absolutely quiet Thunder Backs up the branch The whip is Absolutely quiet It is the awful hand That cracks its end 

There is a great violence a wild capability in all living things who hold some amount of composure To become dismantled to a point where we stop to function are broken down into our raw materials We can explode into ribbons into soft scraps makin...

You will know me I'll be the one grinning You will know it's me Making a face I am Joe Curse Laugh I am Joe Curse Laugh Nerves Absolutely alight Burning To every end I am Joe Curse Laugh I am Joe Curse Laugh Burning the blood Up close To remi...

Stirring and churning The waters have Chosen me To drown, to have They've had their chance In them, I've been My body full In their hand Blue in what light remains Sitting still in the air Like all the angels I'd seen so far Then they wouldn't Tou...

Marked, Labelled ruined before us these, days have writing all over them these days have passed before passing again marked in second hand the penmanship is recognizable some of it in my own handwriting 

without your black fate without your sacrifice bearing bronze swords bearing horned helmets the cycle would be without its end link to the old cult death was neccesity go to a deserted place to reach higher being the end link of cycle is sacrific...

His face is repeated a confronting visage reflected infinitely between two mirrors There are no words for this no facial contortion can hold this face You'll know it when you see it 

Around back There's some things Liquids and fumes Moxious gases Up To something Chicken wire fence and barb wire wrapping Nails Watching rust spread Up To something Somehow they know Smiling nervously Expecting these things To be revealed...

Like lightning struck and mapped through a body thundering blood behind those dark eyes Veins A lightning flash into that fist which won't let go clutching something worldly Veins Like electrical wires beginning a pile and in bundles are under...

Made into a sheet spread thin covering wholly a white efface Tightening and corners pierce through in high altitude Caught by the wind torn flaps give life to its surface 

this will to die bears life makes it posible is an overcoming will shared by any to-be god the will to die will turn bricks into sand into what is desired the will to die wears rings of infinite fortune of blinding gold to be alive is only the...

kill the one who walks in our way knowing we would come through recklessly leave the body in the streets he is not a victim but an example old bodies are crystal clear I can see right through but me I'm a headache I'm a glaring blinding shape using...

Do you see the blood pour out of me? Don't you see? You can't see you are blind you cannot smell the blood. The blood is here for you to lap lap it up what are you waiting for? 

when I die bury me in the snow under a smooth headstone of cool grey granite bury me in the hills under the trees who hold the grey in their branches in no coffin lower my body into the earth cover it with dirt 

at the bottom of the nuclear abyss earth is eroded into full tombs soil is chalk and ash a bleak reflection of what remains as the bones clutter corners of ghastly hellscape the wind laughs at progress disintegrated the sepulchres glow a white con...

Looking Out the Window Looking into Midnight's Blackness Make appear a horrid white face bringing its chin to the window Will a White face in to this world Confront his stare Will a white face gaze in upon you becoming paralyzed Looking out...

I'll break your arm I'll break your legs I'll break your ribs With my hands 

without hate pulled back taught bleeding from its roots about to tear away without blades carved from pitch black obsidian without the sound of polished stone scraping against smooth stone without that clump of skin bleeding dangling nerves...

The weapon is revealed instantly without hesitation the threat exclaimed immediately its white face protrudes its eyes making contact from sunken far back using seconds in the same manner as using minutes and hours every moment is in intense d...

Unholy hermitage, banished in misery, Forest absorbs pain, mountains protect, Poison stream, town heels over gasping, Alone anyways, heretic's revenge, Worship of the cloven holocaust Black energy, black hair Worship of the cloven holocaust Twisted born...

You've had enough all you can stand pushed to your limits out you're getting more You have no choice you have become a decrepit dog from what the've done to you But no matter how loud you scream how much you beg you're getting more, muc...

You're late He's dead It's gone Dog gone Too late The sight Made eyes Erased Sight Trees Pass find out it's over Locked out Pushed Forward He's dead God Damnit